I can proudly say, no one can love me more than I do myself right now! It's been awhile since I felt that. How I hope this feeling can last for a tad while longer. I cannot be envious of others more than I do so at myself at this moment.

Nope, it's not for the results.
Nope, not for WJ's incessant teases.
Nope, not for JS's flattery.

Maybe, it's the end of exams.
Maybe, I wouldn't have to cramp my head hard in the books.
Maybe, I had a fun day out with awesome friends today.
Maybe, I get to eat Subway for dinner!

IT'S ICE SKATING WITH CHAR & KRIS.
Man, how long had it been since I've last skated?

Despite it all, I know I deserve it. Today had been the best day for such a best workout in the worst temperature. At least I hadn't felt too reproachful for my diet today.

Thanks C & K, how grateful I am to have coincidentally bumped into you, coincidentally heard about your plans, coincidentally being invited, coincidentally ice skating, coincidentally have a fun day workout!

Hey POKs, I suddenly miss you guys! Miss the fun we had at ice skating. My first experience were shared with them. You don't know how much I treasure them, up 'til now! Pity Fugi Ice Palace closed, otherwise it would have been a hell MORE lot of fun!
Do you remember the Chen Yi Qing look-a-like we never fail to see at the ice skating rink then? He was here today! As usual.

Throughout the MYEs, I have:

  MISS DONG to thank, for our multiple ongoing questions asked and answered through sms;

  MISS TAN to thank, for assisting me in my revision in between her own (Her own effort had paid off, as always);

MISS CHAN Ru'er to thank, for willing to study with me after examination days and helping me in ways that couldn't have been better. (Yes, I know there isn't any photo of you, 'cuz we didn't take any photos of recent!)

MISS SIM HM, for never failing to meet me early in the morning every day and do some last minute recap with me when the sun's not out.

MISS CHIN YT, for being there to share donuts with me one fine day!

I'm pretty psyched up for the art students designers' Clean and Green event this 5th June, and am even more honored to be physically there to help them in a way I can.

I found a cookie recipe book and I'm determined to bake some cookies for the fun of it/ with some friends! Anyone interested? KC? A? XM? HM?

It's been awhile but I'm getting more and more addicted to Thursday issues of Mind Your Body. They have loads of insightful articles that piques my interest!

; Bel

4:27 PM.

" Friday, May 22, 2009

i am really very bored now. i'm so sian. i don't know what to do. i'm too lazy to get my dvd player. i'm too bored to do anything. what shall i post? my results? heh. keep waiting. i may sooner or later. or maybe not at all. i don't know. my results kinda suck. okay. i found something to do. i shall write out my results and calculate my L1R5. and after that i'll go stick the tiny stone thingy on my calculator and my mp3. hahas. bye (((:

Love, JOVYNE xD

ps, i am so lame... >.<

7:54 PM.

" Tuesday, May 19, 2009

i shall do a quiz! since i have soooo much time (((: YAYA NO MORE BOOKS/EXAMS! freesom!!!

#1.A. Arron (:
1) Do you love this person? yeah, but not as much as JIRO <33
2) Is this person your enemy? NO COZ HE'S PART OF FAHRENHEIT (:
3) Is this person taller than you? 177cm u say lehhs?


B. Billy
1) What do you really think of this person? i don't know him that well (my sec1 junior) but he should be fun and funny (:
2) What's their favourite colour? ehhs... i don't know >.<
3) Ever danced with them? NO.


C. CALVIN (:
1) Do you like this person? OBVIOUSY...
2) Where did you meet this person? at Kallang Indoor Stadium. 1st date HAHA.
3) How old is she? ITS A HE >.<>

D. DANSON (:
1) How long have you known him/her? erm.. almost 2 years HAHA.
2) Biggest regret? NEVER.
3) What do you like about him? HE IS BLOODY HAWT.

E. Evangelin? i can't think of anyone else manzz.
1) Have you met their parents? No, i don't need to haha.
2) Worst thing about this person? i don't know. haha.
3) Best thing about this person? She is damn hardworking. i should learn from her manzz.



F. FABIEN (:
1) Have you ever dated this person? I SO WANNA MANZ!
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? i have no idea. as soon as possible i hope (:
3) Do you go to school with them? I SO WANT TO...



G. Grace. why do i cannot think of anyone else?
1) Is she a good listener? i don't know...
2) Have you ever lied to this person? NO. i have no reason to.
3) Is this person nice? Yeah.



H. Hui ting.
1) What year are they in? 4?
2) Is he/she your best friend? just a friend.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? No?



I. Isabel (:
1) What is this person’s favourite food? i don't know haha.
2) How did you meet this person? classmates in sec1.
3) Do you trust them? hmm... i only trust my sister but yeah, i trust her alot compared to other friends...



J. JIRO <333
1) Do they have any siblings? nope (:
2) Do you know their favourite song? ROCK!!!!
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? I'LL FAINT. but won't happen yeah, so you won't catch me fainting.



K. Keith (:
1) How old were you when you first met? 14 haha.
2) How did you meet? DRAMA (((:
3) Ever danced with this person? no...



L. LU TING WEI (:
1) Do you like him/her? HE IS BLOODY HAWT WHY NOT?
2) What would you do if you had never met this person? LIFE WOULD SUCK.
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person? YESYESYES!!! I PAY I DON'T MIND (((:



M. Martin Kerh
1) Is this person older than you? Nope. My younger cousin.
2) Is this person single? heehee. i don't know. he stead before haha.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? not alot. he talks to my sister for goodness sake.

N. Nicola
1) Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? my junior lol!
2) Have you seen this person cry? i can't remember... i think so? during step down maybe?
3) Do you know this person’s middle name? i don't think she has one lol!

O. Owodog (:
1) Are you related? i wish. then i can get fabien's no (:
2) Could you live with this person? ABSOLUTELY (((: fabien would definitely visit i hope (:
3) Do you believe this person is gay? nope. o hope not anyways.

P. Prince?
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? i want to (:
2) How about a sleepover with them? DEFINITELY (((: fabien would definitely be there <33
3) Does this person have a job? singer/actor

Q. Qi Jing (:
1) Does this person drink alcohol? nope (:
2) Have you seen this person dance? yeah, SUJU dances. she does not dance like SUJU.
3) Where do they work? anglican high. working as a brain-juice donator.

R. Ryuk (:
1) Have you heard this person sing? nope. i don't think he can sing lol.
2) Do you think this person will repost this? he is a i-don't-know-what from hell manz.
3) What's one thing you would change about this person? nothing. i'll just want him to kill whoever i don't like. heart attacks are fine (:

S. Shunyi (:
1) Is this person taller than you? nope (: i'm taller HAHA.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? yeah (: we talk about hawt people a whole lot (:
3) Do they live close to you? yeah. less than 10 min away (:

T. Timothy (:
1) Would you do anything for him/her? not everything >.<
2) Have you been to his/her house? nope.
3) Do you know where she/he lives? yeah. in pasor ris that's all (((:

U. give me someone whoese name starts with U. i bet there isn't >.<
1) Is this person in a relationship? --
2) Is this person a dipshit? --
3) What colour hair does this person have? --

V. Vic Chou (:
1) Do you see this person alot? no. i have no inclination to.
2) How long have you known him/ her for? not really long >.<
3) Is this person your friend? NO. i wish manz.

W. Wenjie (:
1) Is this person quiet or loud? one of the most noisy people i have ever known.
2) Name a friend that both of you are close to? erm. i ain't close to his friends. i don't want to be HAHA.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black i think. never noticed.

X. Xin qiongxi.
1) Why are you friends with him/her? coz he's in my class lol.
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them? erm... lemme think. no. i don't think so. unless u count school field trips HAHA.
3) What is one thing you would change about them? nothing? ahh i know. make him sleep less in class HAHA.

Y. Ying En
1) Does this person wear make-up? don't look like she does.
2) Does this person play any instruments? yeah she's in CO but i don't know what.
3) What is their favourite sport? dunno (:

Z. Zhao'en
1) Does this person have MSN/AIM? i thik so but i never add HAHA.
2) Ever gone shopping with him/her? nope. only study hahas.
3) Does this person have any special skills? ehh... i don't think so ;]

#2.
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4...
i don't have a book near me and i'm too lazy to go get one ;]

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
a tablemat.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
CSI Miami (:

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
2.50pm?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
3pm.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my mum washing the dishes in the kitchen.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
this morning to take my SPA exam in school.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
surfing the net for more stuffs on BOYS OVER FLOWERS CAST <33 (((:

9. What are you wearing?
home tee and shorts O.o

10. Did you dream last night?
yeah but i can't remember what >.< i want to remember my dreams lol.

11. When did you last laugh?
just now when my sister told me a stupid joke (:

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
wallpaper and paint HAHA.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
erm... do exam papers count?

14. What do you think of this quiz?
kinda stupid. i do it coz i'm bored and i finished it half-way already.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Knowing (((: the ending is sad but i like it. CALL ME SADIST (:

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
O.o $$$ yay (((: i'd buy a house and car in taiwan, hongkong, LA and Hawaii. then i'd buy a private jet and hire a pilot and crew. then i'd buy many many many FAHRENHEIT and LOLLIPOP and LU TING WEI merchandise. then i'd save some. then i'd donate some. then i'd use some to save endangered animals and the world. and lastly invite all my taiwan idols to my house for a personal concert (((:

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
you know nuts about me. same goes for my friends ;]

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
make all the evil people good (: i can say byebye to police then >.<

19. Do you like to dance?
not really but i like watching people dance. it can be reaaaaly amusing sometimes (:

20. George Bush:
is some bloody idiot. i don't like him. he's the cause of everything bad >.< no offense to those who support him.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
erm... i haven't thought about this yet >.<

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Calvin (: chinese name is cheng2 wei1 (((: if you're smart you'll geddit HAHA.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
definitely. i don't wanna live here all my life (:

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
i ain't a believer but this should be nice of him: FAHRENHEIT and LOLLIPOP and LU TING WEI are waiting for you (: am i mean? they ARE older than me haha!

Love, JOVYNE xD

6:18 PM.

"

chem and physics paper one was quite doable. should be able to pass. i hope hahas.

Love, JOVYNE xD

i fell for someone. and after more than a year, i managed to get over him. i immersed myself into something else to numb the pain, to make life seem more optimistic. how foolish i was! nothing could make life better, everything on this earth happens so world peace would never become a reality. i let myself fall into another world, where i hoped to escape from reality and live in another dimension where anger and fear never existed. i never realised the danger i put myself in, and now i do. when the bubble burst, i found mysef left with nothing. practically nothing. i'm just an empty shell with nothing left inside. nothing left for me to work towards. nothing left to keep me going. i'm questioning the purpose of my existance in the complex, cruel world where each man fends for himself. i don't see the meaning of life anymore. and why people say its colourful and it deserves our love and care, i will never understand. nochalance. my only facade to survive all this.

1:48 PM.

" Monday, May 18, 2009

its been hell of a 2 weeks that was long and torturous, but it also brought our the best and worst in people. yeah, its been two slow weeks coz i guess time just passes even more slowly when you're looking forward to something. i now learn how to appreciate freedom. but people are always greedy and i'm hungry for more. i just need a bigger cage, now that i'm no longer the little bird i was 1 year ago (even though my cage has been upgraded once before ;]) ohwell, that can be negotiated another time when my parents are in a suuuper good mood. anyways, its just 2 more days of torture till freedom reign supreme. till then, i'll be thinking of ways and means to make 48 hours seem shorter and less hellish. i but tomorrow's lunch date with qijing and anna would be my morale booster. i hope bel can make it too. ps, if you see this, its now at eighteen chefs. haven't been there for a loooong while. sonce my simei care centre days with my dear fellow ED-iots (((: bloody hell there's no tuition on thurs and sat!!! >.<

Love, JOVYNE xD

12:27 PM.

"

“… to use visual cues to trigger me, like the sign I put up in my house that says ‘Breathe’. In this economy, it’s something everyone needs to remember.” Jean Chatzky

It’s the Harris and Popular Sale! I have this sudden itch to own Twilight series. Anyone willing to satisfy my humble request? ^^

Brief thank you to Jun Hao for the preach advice column. I know I can turn to you when I fall into the waves of low morale.

Read Patron Saint of Emotional Inertia again, that feeling came on again. I wouldn’t say I’m her fan. I wouldn’t risk my life for her autograph. It’s knowing that someone alive and kicking out there who is everything you wanted to be, the sparse hope of possibility that you can be like her, and the reality hitting you that you are not what she is, not doing anything you can to achieve that. You blame it on the lack of opportunity given to you, but you lament yourself for finding such an inexcusable excuse knowing opportunities are for you to create. How would you describe that?

I got to train my nerves by practising optimism. May I ask,how do you “have faith in yourself”?

8:43 PM.

" Sunday, May 17, 2009

OMMG i have emaths paper 1 tomorrow and i went out today. haha i don't really care much anyways. haha my parents wanted to buy luggage or something. so just tag along. coz i'm damn bored at home. went centrepoint but i ended up at OG. i met my grandma and i dragged her down there with me. haha coz i needed some one to sponser me something that i REAAAAALLY want (: i saw this tee shirt, that some one said JIRO also have. i can't remember who but it was i DU member i think. if you see this please tell me i wanna thank you personally (: she said it was a cheer you up tee and JIRO has one. so i was damn shocked when i saw it in OG. it was i giordano (dammit how to spell??) tee and i was like, OMMG! and it DID look familiar haha. so my grandma sponsered the tee. it was $20 bucks manz! and i wanted to share the cost but my grandma say mever mind work hard get alot of As for her can lerh. its like, 1 A1 = $10 or something. i hope 1 A1 is worth much more than that. haizzz... anyways i'm just damn bloody happy now (: ahahahaha. tuition is so fun!

Love, JOVYNE xD

4:46 PM.

" Saturday, May 16, 2009

i'm slacking like i don't know what nowadays. haha, maybe coz i only have 4 papers left lol! and its mcq for sciences and paper 1 for emaths. and paper 2 for emaths was hard, so this SHOULD be easy. heh. and i'm planning to go out already (: i guess maybe coz i've been stuck at home for too long studying - almost 1 month? plus exam days about 7 weeks. wow. i like, damn restless now and i wanna go out!!!! and watch movie and play and slack and eat and... i don't know. i wanna go DU gathering!!! wahahahahaha. i wanna go kbox with them!!! wahahaha. i don't know why but i miss them alot >.<>.< i wanna see them again!!! blehs.

JOVYNE.

1:00 PM.

"

“You never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for it is painfully won, and it has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.'’ J.K. Rowling

When the examinations end, The mental chime will ring. It will be time, for self-renewal.

If I could, I would pluck out that sweet tooth lurking in the dark corner. The root of all frustrations. How do you silent the siren of junk food?

My mind comprises of 2 opposite poles that I have no control over. I have to do something. Train my neurones, maybe. Who has ever heard of evil triumphing!

I hear my body screaming at me to work out.

; Bel

8:24 PM.

" Friday, May 15, 2009

i feel like posting about random things lol.
i went to surf the net just now. about idols and stuff yeah, PREDICTABLE. and, when i think about all those encounters i have with them, those memories are just so special, and precious. even though its just 3, but its the secial 3. other people have more, but i tell myself not to be greedy. 3 is alot. to me. i'll just wait for the right chance to pass by. i'm leaving it to fate. and when i see videos of them, its like, they're huamn too. they have emotions, they feel sad too. and that is one thing that links us all ToGetHer. and i feel so warm inside. just to know that this is all happening to me. yet sometimes i wish i don't know these idols and stuff. then i won't be envious of people who have more chances to see them than me.
and... they're like dreams. the possibility of fulfilling those dreams are just so slim, yet there is always a ray of hope. HOPE. suddenly reminded of my essay. HOPE. we all need it.
so i shall not emo. shall i? emo-ing is such a funny feeling. you're dropping into thid bottomless pit of drakness and all things bad, but the mere fact that you emo makes you human, and that you have feelings. blehs. i confusing myself. i need someone to talk to. an adlut maybe? catherine's nice to talk to :)

Love, JOVYNE xD

5:40 PM.

"

physics today was screwed. the questions were suuuper tricky. its so... blehs. i just wanna go out. i wanna go for DU k-session this sunday. and my mum don't let. next week still have exams, yeah i know... SIAN. haizzz. haizzz. haizzz.......... i'm just so damn bloody tired. i don't wanna study anymore, my brain will shrink at the end of this year i tell you. i just wanna let go and run wild. but sadly, coz some people exist on this earth (the don't deserve to anyway) i can't.

JOVYNE.

7:03 PM.

" Tuesday, May 12, 2009

my hand is hurting like crazy... i don't know why haha. but only my right hand >.< and i think coz i i had my hist paper today. and i'm resting my hand on the table and only typing thhe keys within my reach. my left hand is super active now LOL. haiz.... its super scary when people don't finish the paper and you do. its like, you either didn't write enough or you did something wrongly or what i doon't know. its just bloody scary and it really hits your confidence hard. damn. this happened for SS, emaths and history. i'm just super scared now. i'm just happy to pass...

more updates:
8/5:
emaths - i think its screwed. maybe i'll pass?
clit - even an idiot would know, how can i possibly do well for this bloody hard paper?

12/5:
chem - i think i can pass. i hope i can pass...
history - most likely can pass, but no confidence to do well.

that's about it i guess. can't really type anymore. my right hand is hurting like shit manz.

Love, JOVYNE xD

1:19 PM.

" Monday, May 11, 2009

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MUMMYS!!!! lol went out to Suntec Sizzler to eat haha. cam-whored like crazy when we came back.
presenting..... MY DEAREST MUMMY!!!!

*tadaaaa!!!! the blouse so damn cute right? mummy is still very young okkay!!!*

*ahahaha sister's cam-whoring time >.<*

Love, JOVYNE xD

[edit//]

watch this, please. click on it, its not a damn virus okay???

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

4:28 PM.

" Sunday, May 10, 2009

AH JOVYNE SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING I'VE BEEN PREVENTING MYSELF FROM GOING ONLINE, MUCH LESS BLOG YOU SEE B)

WANTED TO SAY YOUR POST BELOW IS COOL.
& ALL THE BEST WORKING HARD FOR MYEs. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT ;D
& HOW MIGHTY GLAD I AM TO HAVE YOU TO STUDY TOGETHER!
& HOW (AHEM) IS PESTERING THE HELL OUT OF ME (not in a negative way) & I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL YOU ABOUT IT SOON!

GOODBYE ;D

P.S. Happy Mother's Day to all MUM's of the world!

YES, THERE'S A SCHOOL HOLIDAY TOMORROW WHAT A BONUS FOR STUUUUUDENTSSSS d:

; Bel

6:46 PM.

" Saturday, May 9, 2009

It's not the fault of the student if he/she fails because the year ONLYhas 365 days...
typical academic year for a student:

1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.

2. Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study.
Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE.
Days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days.
Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chewing properly & swallowing) - means 30 days.
Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days.
Days left 81.

7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days.
Days left 6.

9. For sickness - at least 3 days.
Days left 3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days.
1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday.
How can you study on that day ?!?!?!?!?!

Balance = 0.
How can a student pass ?????

LOL received this email HAHA ^^v

Love, JOVYNE xD

6:19 PM.

" Thursday, May 7, 2009

that would be my last post before mid-years, i didn't say anything about during ^^v heh, just updates of papers i've taken:

6/5 --
English: screwed
Social Studies: screwed super bad
7/5 --
HCL: too easy = become complacent = no confidence to do well

overall: SCREWED BIG TIME.

heh, my friend came up with this. and it is so totally damn cool. and sweet. and i feel so warm inside when i read it. even if its not the person you like who said it, but it just makes you warm and fuzzy all over ^^v

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up every day,
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
The first time i saw you i wanted to meet you again
The time i met you again i wanted to talk to you
The time i talked to you i wanted to tell you how much i love you
The time i told you how much i loved you i wanted you to love me back
Now that you love me back, i want never to lose you...
If the moments you were on my mind were represented by a stalk of flower, i can never walk out of this garden.
Your life is like a walk on the beach, maybe you've never noticed but there is another set of footprints always beside yours and that’s me.
The times when you see only 1 set of footprints is the time when u were at your saddest moments and i carried u up and continued the journey.

******COPYRIGHT******** ////// credit to JEROME :) PLEASE DON'T KOPE IF NOT I'LL REMOVE IT!!!

JOVYNE xD