OMG, my XIAOYU and LOLLIPOP!!! so shuai!! dreams all shattered... i feel like dying...Love, JOVYNE xD
haha, @ simei care centre now. BLOGGING. coz we don't have anything to do @ the YESClub. and i'm so bored. but who cares?? we still get to cloch our CIP hours. haiz.. ohwellz. i'm like, seriously so bored. i don't even know what to post!!! we are all like, sitting around talking and not doing anything. and listening to music. some lang3 lai2 le4. don't know what it is but it sounds familiar. ohwell. i don't know what to post!!! argh.. SIAN!!!!
... Mine's like that: ... The catch is confidence. It's the crucial factor that'd make us look to standard, it brings everything up; posture, expression etc. Albeit not being able to portray our moves well, the confidence in us can cover it up. We could have looked okay. ... ... Now it all comes back to me. Little things matter much. For one thing I know about myself, I'm the "sure, no problem" type. Back to my point, if we really want to improve ourselves. Why not complain less, practice more. Be it the confidence level or the posture or the way you carry yourself or dance moves. HO and Guitar practices are longer than ours. Why can't we use that much production time or even more? After all, who's the one that catches the audiences' attention but us?... I mean, if they were able to be enlightened and look at it from another perspective, for the sake of our seniors, our own face, the teachers' and instructors' effort put in irregardless of any feud or blatant discrimination, why can't we put in an extra effort that might turn the tables around and receive praises, make us and everyone one of us around proud and contented? Who knows, they might even see AHS Dance in a new light and this could spur the other little juniors to follow by example. I've experienced it before. I know how much the seniors and people with authority have the unseen ability to influence the rest to follow by their example. So if someone were to step out and up to make the first move, that could change our's and everyone else's mindset... ... I know I should not put myself down and be pessimistic..., but that's just the way it is. Who isn't afraid of rejection? Well I am... Seriously, I know myself... I'm afraid. Really I am. That is why I treasure the people who are concerned of me despite everything else, like T and A. They don't forsake, no matter what the circumstances are. I appreciate friends like them. Yes I do. They aren't over-sensitive over certain issues nor despise. I got interviewed at Century Square today. Got cornered and KY, A simply walked off. *Stomps!* They asked some questions regarding health, in Chinese. Oh ugh! Was telling A she wanted to make it big... But oh my, just look at me. My words speak louder than actions, in every way. I GOT to make a change. KY told me she wanted to try out Theatre Studies and Drama in VJC. Oh wow, so I'm not the only one harboring these thoughts. I love you, I found something in common with you! I want to extend my love to QJ too, for having similar childhood dreams with me that others might think foolish during a cosy tete-a-tete with her by chance. I love A too 'cuz she wants to be a rockstar! I was thinking of getting this boots before today: I thought of getting boots way before this dance! To J: It's time you invest on your camera/ video! I can't see their faces clearly at all!
OKOK, PICTURES ARE HERE!!!!! >>> OMG!! XIAOYU!! Love, JOVYNE xD
OMG went for LOLLIPOP 棒棒堂 autograph session @ IMM yesterday! OMGOMGOMG, they are like, so shuai la!!! wahahaha, cannot stand it. started queueing at like, 3pm? when it was supposed to start at 630. haha, lishan even told me that once when she went to queue for SHE's autograph session she reached at 7am and there were hundreds of people before her. the thing was supposed to start at like what, 7pm?? that is what i call pro. lol. ohwells, it was damn fun!! we had to queue outside the staff cafeteria coz the queue downstaires at the garden plaza was full already. queue for 3 hours then they came out!! they came from some exit near where we were queueing so we were like waiting for them to appear. they really very on time, 630pm
收拾好行囊 准备好出发 探索我的未来
haha, quite some time since i posted. too busy i guess. really have a lot to do this holiday. looking for a job (heard of one but not sure whether can get a not), doing CIP, homework!!!, going overseas, FAHRENHEIT CONCERT IN DEC!!! wahahaha, no time for friends already... really really busy. actually promised to go bowling later with jingying shunyi they all, but had to turn down coz i had to do CIP... SORRY POEPLE!!! haha, find another day okay? psps, LOLLIPOP COMING TO SINGAPORE TO PROMOTE THEIR OST FOR HTQXZ!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG! you know what? its held @ IMM too! okay, i missed fahrenheit's one, so now i don't bloody care, i am so not gonna miss LOLLIPOP's autograph session! heheheheheh... but must buy the OST 1st la. which isn't a problem i think. i hope. i wish. know what, i realised that if you believe in your dreams hard enough, and want it to come true that badly, and you are willing to do it all for it to come true, and you really, really, really want it to cometrue, it will. serious, trust me. its happened to me before. i'm not going to say how, when, what or why, but seriously, its true. thats it for now i guess. i'll try to update more often, given my busy schedule. ;D
I did not go MIA aye! Last things first. Went SWIMMING @ Traci's Ris Grandeur (my, am I one detailed one!) along with Jacqueline in the morning! Finally got my calorie-burning activity done!It'd been staying stagnant under my list of Things To Do for the Holidays for quite some time now. Haven't tasted chlorine and getting wet&fun combined for a long while and it tastes, SWEET! I'm super honored. Heh. Thanks you two! What a girls day out. Next up: Gym sessions! Headed to Loyang Point to search for black/brown, heeled, classy, glamorous boots! Oh NO! I've not gotten them and Traci keeps reminding me that full dress rehearsal is on Tuesay! I KNOW I KNOW! That leaves me with 1, 2, 3,4 more days to search for my boots! (I'm not going for dance tomorrow. I have dental appointment, and I'd like to take the opportunity to search for BOOTS @ Far East, Bugis etc. for the past weekend to come.) Any company-takers here who is qualified to give shopping&shoe advice? *cheese* Munched on half a portion of calorie-building Chicken Cutlet. Ugh! Toured the whole dull Pasir Ris, practically. Went to Whitesands to continue scouring to no avail. Borrowed Oliver Twist at library with Traci under J section. Hee hee! Up to Popular to read the graphic novel of Sing To The Dawn which was easily subdued it within a couple of minutes. What an accomplishment! Lin got her results today. *Coughs coughs* Well well, she overthrew me by a splendid 7 marks. Aww. Well done, I must say. For playing harder than me, being less serious than me, talking longer hours on the phone with her friends than me, being more spendthrift than me. Jacq advises strongly against AHS. HURHUR. Hope she's set her sights far! Nothing goes the way I wanted for me. I'd sacrifice much of myself and entertainment to work for the goal everyone is working towards. But things won't let me get my way, never. I'm not being hard up on Sis or myself, just wondering. They say everyone has talents. How come I don't seem to? FORENSICS SHOW IS HERE! GOODBYE! Update on chalet, Rule #1, etc soon! Meanwhile, is anyone interested to buy this from me? It smells fresh from the shop, at a special price too!
O wad some Power the giftie gie us Oh that God, the gift would give us -Robert Burns
Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the mask I wear. For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off, and none of them is me. Pretending is an art that is second nature with me, but don't be fooled. ... I give the impression that I'm secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without; that confidence is my name and coolness is my game; that waters are calm and that I'm in command and I need no one. But don't believe it; please don't. I idly chatter with you in the suave tones of surface talk. I tell you everything that's really nothing, nothing of what's crying within me. so when I'm going through my routine, don't be fooled by what I'm saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear try to hear what I'm not saying, what I'd like to be be able to say; what, for survival, I need to say but i can't say. I dislike the hiding. Honestly I do. I dislike the superficial phony games I'm playing. I'd really like to be genuine, spontaneous and me; but you have to help me. You have to help me by holding out your hand, even when that's the last thing I seem to want or need. Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging, each time you try to understand because you really care, my heart begins to grow wings. Very small wings. Very feeble wings. But wings. With your sensitivity and sympathy and your power of understanding, I can make it. You can breathe life into me. It will not be easy for you. a long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls, and therein lies my hope. Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands, but with gentle hands, for a child is very sensitive, and I am a child. Who am I, you may wonder. For I am every man, every woman, every child.. Every human you meet.
my first post here lol! hmm... don't really know what to post. haiz. what else?
Right, so this blog is the fruit of the much-awaited, combined effort of I & J. It's a testimonial of what true friendship is. A note to our fellow readers: I was worried that I's friends may not know J and vice versa. Hesitate not, 'cuz J's friends are I's and so are I's friends. I & J have been planning on a combined blog, and finally, shineconstellations has evolved on the first AHS Secondary 3'08 official day of the school holidays, and I's the one making the inaugural opening address. J: You could make another J's open address, can't you? *grins* On I's side, her simplew0rds has been converted to a private blog. "It's sort of a good thing. At least I feel more at ease and less worried about disclosing too much. Unlike Jin Min, I didn't disappoint my other blog readers thanks to the birth of this! HA! Gosh, Gossip Girl is leaving me such an impact to have changed my blogging style. Gee. So has my lack of blogging been reflected on this error-ridden post. Good riddance!" A brief update on I: ( Pardon me, I'm struggling with my words, 'cuz I lost touch with them. ) I'll end off with: More to go! I'm sorry I cannot edit the settings right now so stay tuned!
2:16 PM.
" haha, long time never update blog. damn, i'm freaking pissed. the Taiwan trip has been cancelled!!! its damn irritating. i'm seriously freaking pissed/angry/sad/depressed and whatever. haiz. its like, how can i not go?? i heard it was because the flight was full and the fuel surcharge was too ex so not going. its so... ARGH!!!! dream not coming true anymore then. heh. never gonna come true. you may guess but you will never be 100% sure. that that is my dream. i'm not telling. argh!! whatever. i'm seriously damn freaking pissed. i seriously feel like killing someone!!!! i'll cut off your head, chop your body into pieces and throw the limbs into the sea to feed the fishes, then use your head to play football, and hang your body in the forest for it to rot. GARGH!!!!!! i don't know. this dream is so important to me! i just cant...Love,JOVYNE xD
5:49 PM.
" Tuesday, November 25, 2008
p.s. I: my camera no battery, so use handphone take picture. haha, no choice! but it was still so damn fun! we should go together someday!!! LOLLIPOPLOVE!!!!!Love, JOVYNE xD
5:20 PM.
" 
Not too conspicuous nor attractive nor bombastic, which made it an acceptable costume. Lucky thing is, I get to wear boots! The first time I tried boots on to dance with, it was so slippery it made my dance moves slur, which was a totally spoiler scene.
How does it look?
9:11 AM.
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9:00 PM.
" Monday, November 24, 2008
exact they appear from the door!!! then meimei took video, i took picture, AND THEY
WALKED RIGHT PAST US!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! so damn cool la!!! then waited till like, 730 then can go on stage to get their signatures. meimei asked me before that: will you say anything to them (XIAOYU in particular)? i'm like, see how lor, maybe too shocked to say anything.. then really true!! once you go on stage, and see them up close, like, half a metre away from you, you really, too stunned to say anything la.. well, the order they were sitting was like: XIAOJIE AWEI WANGZI AOQUAN WEILIAN XIAOYU(!!!), then xiaojie was first.
they signed the album and THEY SHOOK YOUR
HAND!!! i was like, OMG, THAT'S XIAOJIE'S HAND I'M
SHAKING!! it feels so.. cool. yet abit normal. i dunno how to describe. i was like
waiting to shake XIAOYU'S hand and
OMGOMGOMG!! so cool!! XIAOYU LEH!!! CAN YOU
IMAGINE??!! okay, pictures speak a thousand words, i know, but dunno why my phone can't connect to the com. so irritating. haha, will try to post them tomorrow. most likely tomorrow. ok. BYEBYE!!Love, JOVYNE xD
(still feel so happy, even though its like 24 hours ago. it all seems so surreal...)
10:13 AM.
" Sunday, November 23, 2008
充满期待 热血澎湃 心跳的好厉害
太多的站牌 我眼花撩乱 不知该怎么办
选择上车 选择等待 还是等待淘汰
沿途有人退出 (看远方天空 乌云有了缺口)
有人继续坚持 (雨过天晴后 梦想不停闪烁)
梦想巴士载着我们向下站遨游 (交出你的手 跟着我一起走)
让梦想发光 照亮我们的方向
旅途很漫长 穿越过无数心墙
眼角的泪光 我们成长的力量
挺起了胸膛 伙伴们一起去闯
同样的地方 做同样的事 过同样的生活
得到什么 失去什么 拥有过就足够
把你的右手 放在左心窝 心加速了跳动
因为有你 我才发现 我的纯真感动
沿途有人退出 (看远方天空 乌云有了缺口)
有人继续坚持 (雨过天晴后 梦想不停闪烁)
梦想巴士载着五们向下站遨游( 交出你的手 跟着我一起走)
让梦想发光 照亮我们的方向
沿途很漫长 穿过无数心墙
眼角的泪光 我们成长的力量
挺起了胸膛 伙伴们一起去闯
总难免会失望 要变的更坚强
总难免会遗忘 要坚持着信仰
不管多难都不退让
让梦想发光 温暖了寂寞心房
未来的路上 不会再迷失方向
坚持着梦想 失败也绝不投降
紧握的手掌 握住了幸福希望棒棒堂 - 梦想巴士昨天在车上，我听了这首歌。我知道，这是老歌，很多人也可能没听过，也不是很好听，可是，歌词。。。“让梦想发光 照亮我们的方向”我听了这一段，就开始想，梦想，照亮方向？可以吗？梦想。。。我的梦想到底是什么？因为有了梦想，才会找到方向？那我呢？我没梦想，那生活也不会有方向了吗？“让梦想发光 温暖了寂寞心房”有了梦想，就不会寂寞？哈哈，难怪。。。“挺起了胸膛 伙伴们一起去闯” 挺起了胸膛又怎样？有伙伴陪你一起去闯吗？“同样的地方 做同样的事 过同样的生活 得到什么 失去什么 拥有过就足够”拥有过就足够？拥有。。。但也要问一下，你真的是否拥有过？没有的话，那怎么会足够呢？而且，我们真的会找到这样知心的朋友吗？找到的话，他们愿意相信你吗？相信的话，你愿意相信他们吗？相信的话，那恭喜你喽。。。可是，会有多少人的生活这么的完美，样样都那么顺利？我也要这种生活啊，但心里要能得到吗？是命中注定的。。。命中注定你会过这样的生活，命中注定你的梦想不会实现，命中注定你爱的人不会爱你，命中注定你的生活会是这样的！！！Love, JOVYNE xD
9:07 AM.
" Friday, November 21, 2008Love, JOVYNE xD
9:59 PM.
" Thursday, November 20, 2008
4:15 PM.
" Tuesday, November 18, 2008
To see oursels as ithers see us!
It wad frae monie a blunder free us,
An' foolish notion:
What airs in dress an' gait wad lea'e us,
An' ev'n devotion!
To see ourselves as others see us!
It would save us from many mistakes
And foolish thoughts:
We would change the way we look and act
And even the things we spend time doing!
4:51 PM.
" Sunday, November 16, 2008
9:49 AM.
" Saturday, November 15, 2008
okay... erm, congrats I for finding a job! good for you. heh, while i'm still stuck looking for one. recommend me kz?
its like, finally! holidays are here! went down 85 with QJ yesterday, and we were talking. she asked if i will feel akward about not seeing classmates and friends for 5 weeks etc etc. i'm like, why should i? i don't miss them horribly, just the good friends are worth my time and effort. friends are just friends. they are just people you see everyday who accompany you through your secondary school years. they don't know you all that well, you can't trust them completely, so therefore i have my own secrets only my sister knows. who knows, even the friend you trust most turn out to be the one you least expected to backstab you, not saying that it has happened to me or anything. after all, who would love friends more then self/family? okay, some may but those are just the extreme cases. so, isn't it obvious what the choice would be between yourself and your friends? like duh, you would let yourself have the best. you and your friends don't even have blood ties!
okay, but still, the are friends worth dying for (am i right to say that?). you can hardly find any 两肋插刀的好朋友 nowadays. treasure them before you regret.
okay, i'm like crapping la. fine, i shan't bore you any further.
bye.Love, JOVYNE xD
9:37 PM.
" Friday, November 14, 2008
SLEEPOVER
SPORTS BUDDY
improving on INTERPERSONAL RELATIONS
BREAKING DAWN
LOCK-PROOF journal
a DUMBBELL
GOSSIP GIRL dvd
TWILIGHT book series
a game of TENNIS