8:28 PM.
" Tuesday, March 3, 2009
you know, its the little things in life that makes it so wonderful. the tiny things that you take for granted everyday, yeah, those things simply make your day when you finally realise how important they are to you. like the simple 5-10 minute walk to school, i never realised how quiet and serene the neighbourhood was, and seeing the few people go about their daily life is simply just... heart-warming. they can go about their daily life, and do it so well at that, why can't i? why in the world must i worry about things i seriously cannot control, like feelings? not just others, but my own included. yeah right, bullshit, you cant control your feelings. what an idiot, people say.. its that complicated when it comes to alot of things. its you, those childish, immature people who are spoilt brats that don't realise that the world is in fact bigger than that tiny one you live in. you get everything you want, i don't deny this fact either, but have you really paused to think that the world isn't just about you, your friends, your life and your whatever shit? i noticed this one day sometime ago, okkay a few months ago, that life just isn't as MEANINGFUL you make it out to be. people just live and die, what's the point? you get reborn and live and die again. this may be the god-knows-how-many lives i've lived. or this could be the first. GOD KNOWS MANZ. you may not agree with me and believe in god and heaven and eternal life up there with god, that's your belief, what can i do about it? but hey, give it some thought. one of you heard me talk about this before, and yes you respect my beliefs. and so you also know that i don't see how valuable life is. i can just die the next day and people cry and mourn, for i don't know, max 1 month (other than those people who REALLY care, not those who just there in the background) and forget about me. see my point? if not forget it. CHILDISH, IMMATURE PEOPLE WILL. NOT. GET. IT. just close this window/tab or whatever and msn your friends. i seriously feel like using words i'm not supposed to but i can't bear to pollute the blog i care so much about.
JOVYNE.
"THE ME .
a bona fide smile
PLEASE... HEAR WHAT I'M NOT SAYING
Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the mask I wear.
For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off, and none of them is me. Pretending is an art that is
second nature with me, but don't be fooled.
... I give the impression that I'm secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as
well as without; that Confidence is my name and coolness is my game; that waters are calm and that I'm in command and I need no one.
But don't believe it; please don't.
I idly chatter with you in the suave tones of surface talk. I tell you everything that's really nothing, nothing of what's crying
within me. So when I'm going through my routine, don't be fooled by what I'm saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear what
I'm not saying; what I'd like to be able to say; what, for survival, I need to say but I can't say. I dislike hiding. Honestly I do.
I dislike the superficial phony games I'm playing.
I'd really like to be genuine, spontaneous and me; but you have to help me. You have to help me by holding out your hand, even when
that's the last thing I seem to want or need. Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging, each time you try to understand because
you really care, my heart begins to grow wings. Very small wings. Very feeble wings. But wings. With your sensitivity and sympathy and
your power of understanding, I can make it. You can breath life into me. It will not be easy for you. A long conviction of worthlessness
builds strong walls, and therein lies my hope. Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands, but with gentle hands, for a child
is very sensitive, and I am a child.
Who am I, you may wonder. For I am every man, every woman, every child.. Every human you meet.
Singapore
Singaporean
Chinese
Cantonese
11/10/1993
St. Anthony's Canossian Primary School 1999-2005;
1/2 AL 3/4 GA 5/6 HI
Mini-Tennis
Anglican High School 2006-2009;
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AHS 2006-2009 1L 2F 3C 4C
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--in her life--
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JOVYNE WANTS:
SHIT i can't find my word document with all my WISHES >.<
BEL WANTS:
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SPORTS BUDDY
improving on INTERPERSONAL RELATIONS
BREAKING DAWN
LOCK-PROOF journal
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GOSSIP GIRL dvd
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