heyy i'm back again. haha, its kinda stupid to post on 2 consecutive days, but heck care. anyways, i had SEC1 WELCOME PARTY just now!!!! yes, its damn cool. its really suuuuper fun manx. there were 6 stations and 5 were dirty i.e. involving the use of weeds, leaves, muck (from field), chin chow, eggs, milk, flour, tofu, soap, butter, vinegar, soy sauce, oatmeal, tomatoes etc. its quite disgusting really, but its kinda... thrilling?? i shan't elaborate on the details lest you PUKE out whatever you have just ate :) i realised that this year's orientation was much more well-planned compared to last year, much more fun, much more disgusting and dirty, and also much more bonding. WE SERIOUSLY BONDED ALOT. i was actually touched when we surprise-splashed water on people. during the whole welcome party process, we really went all out and put in our best for our group, and we all got dirty and helped clean each other. even though we sabo-ed people who were still dry, it was really a once-in-a-lifetime experience. it really made me realise how bad i was as a VP coz the whole CCA wasn't really bonded during my time as ex-co. really. i feel quite 失败.
okkay.. i'm back! CNY was fun this year. angbao money didn't go down, kinda remained the same... which is good, of course. so... i'm happy! and wardrobe this year was good. and we gambled. and i won some money. which i didn't keep, of course, coz i had a sponsor =D sooo.... overall quite fun la. haha, also 自恋-ed alot. only on the second day, coz i totally forgot to take pictures lol. shall post some up here. don't laugh at me okay... yupp.. that's not it, but just these few. i'll post more if i have time la. byezzz! Love, JOVYNE xD
'That was the biggest gift of telling my secret- I discovered I wasn't alone and I was normal.' o·to·lar·yn·gol·o·gy ( n. The branch of medicine that deals with diagnosis and treatment of diseases of the ear, nose, and throat der·ma·tol·o·gy (dûr n. The branch of medicine that is concerned with the physiology and pathology of the skin I've been referred to these clinics in and out at CGH due to some abnormality of my skin and gum. Dang it. Do you want to see? It's gross to a little extent. Ever since the return to school and meeting up with friends for the inaugural time this year, many have commented that I looked different. T was the one that made me first aware of my face shape. When prompted he said my face became rounder. Maybe it was due to the absence of my braces. From To Bottomline: I think I did change after some intense looking-at-myself-in-the-mirror sessions. HA. HA. HA. Oh you know what, I read an article on Mind Your Body about a disorder called DBB. It's symptoms include: I can't remember the rest. Based on my super strong memory they say it can occur in adolescents and adults too and no cosmetic surgery is satiable to them. Watch out watch out! + I have a piece of beneficial news for everyone who doesn't read MYB that quality sleep (meaning not being disrupted in the middle of the night) is much more vital than quantity sleep though researchers say that 8 hours of sleep is the minimal where blahblahblah... Did you know. I used to grind my teeth when I'm asleep when I'm young. Hur hur. Don't you? The whole family engaged in pre-CNY preparation fun family bonding by making pineapple tarts. Add to the list Mum did to perfect her skills "Kueh Bangkit", Banana oatmeal cake, Hershey's Dark Chocolate cookies, "keropok" BEFORE: I did the “学业进步”. Aren't they pretty? Plus all the weird-looking shapes like the sun, carrot and asterisk-looking one though they didn't look quite as appealing =x haha! Applaud me for my creativity! AFTER: Banana outmeal cake! Chocolate cookies. Imagine the strong aroma when you open the lid [+ The raw crackers not yet soaked and fried with oil! I'll end of with 新年快乐·恭喜发财·年年有余! I don't know what else already. That's why I keep my mouth shout every time they shout the four word auspicious words during the "lao yu sheng" time =x Looking forward to playing cards and mahjong and angpaos! P.S. I'm extending my generous invitation to all the people I know to come to my house to 拜年！ P.P.S. Those at Malaysia visiting, D, YC, RY etc come back quick and accompany me!
haha, i'm like the only one updating lol. coz i'm bored???? i'm really starting to miss RSS. those times were really carefree. we didn't have to worry about stuff like demerit points and how we look like infront of our friends. coz we were still innocent, and young, and didn't understand the society enough to hide our flaws. i really envy the sec1s, not only bacause the stress level is near-zero, but also because they don't understand the society enough yet. i'd rather not know anything than know everything. sounds cool. copyright by me okay!!!
After being MIA for a pretty long time and with J doubting my presence, I have finally found the time to have the mood to blog again! Spurred on by Dance, the latest thoughts, plus a thousand other thoughts ricocheting my mind. So much of them going through that I am unable to grab 'em all. So I'll just start with the most recent, phenomenal ones that would add to my memory collections! Dance Here's my production: I know the 5/8 juniors' names! Namely, Huang Xin-my future-to-be chang cheng buddy, Abellona-the unique name, Judy-the shy one, Yvonne-tall dude (166), Jing Nin-inhumanely flexible and tiny. Here comes the best part. With my partner-in-collaboration, Ou Wen. (Man, I think this NOOB jackass must be feeling high and mighty now. :) This like-minded, fanatic 2-year my 1-year older junior (Note to readers: Sophisticated?) and I went on a mission to be friendly, affable and leave a good impression on the Sec 1 juniors! Guess what? It was a success! Considering how we made a fool out of herself, myself and me in front of them. HA. HA. No kidding, we went bonkers. Conclusion: O is an irritating buzzer. You know, since I entered Dance, I noticed an invisible barrier between levels i.e. generation gap aka. level gap amongst us. Ever since I thought about me playing the role of a senior, I gave myself a mental note to treat everyone, big or small equally. Yes, that's how much I abhorred the level gap. It stops you from communicating with your Sec 4 seniors when you're Sec. 1 due to superior fear. I never wanted that to happen to the juniors who'd take on this role. I wouldn't, and from my performance up 'til now, I haven't let down myself! 4L Pre-CNY foreword + spring cleaning of our blog i.e. update on my profile and links
heyyzzz... went back RSS today. haha, had ALOT of fun. i went back with my sis, and we went to look for our nephew there... hehehe, he's sooo shuai!!! OMG, and my sis says he looks like JIRO! i'm like... ~.~''' i don't know! haha, then her friends all came and met us in the hall. there was BRANDON, YU CHUAN, LEROY, SEAN, ELISABETH... Oo, and felicia and wendy.. but we mostly hang out with the CAPSLOCK-ED (lol!) peeps. haha, had lots of fun, even though they're only sec1s. they don't look very sec1-ish, but their attitude and 言行举止 are so totally sec1. they are like, so playful, and so childish, and rather immature. okay, fine, maybe coz i'm sec4, so 老了，有代沟... LOL! but still, its fun hanging out with them... it kinda makes me forget all my troubles for that few hours, and just enjoy myself and immerse myself in their company. they're still so young, and innocent, and can just be themselves. i feel so... at ease with them. i can be myself around them, and its so... relaxing. 终于可以放下心中的大石头了，但最后，那大石头还得再背起来。。。i kinda wish they're my classmates. sighzzzz... not saying that my present classmates are horrible or anything, its just that... garh, never mind. after olevels, we shall go out together!!! =DDD
okay. i'm back. i've got am and hcl test on thursday, but i'm like, losing touch with further trigo. i can't seeem to do most of the tb questions!!! OMG, i think i'm like dead. maybe i shall do hcl first. yeah maybe. today was okayokay... suuuuper boring manz. school is like, so routine, so boring. nothing interesting or amusing to keep me alive in school. i feel like this robot that listens to teacher in class and do what the teacher told you to. i just fee like slacking, but i know i can't. i really can't. i need to do well for olevels. to prove you wrong. that whatever crap you are doing now won't affect me. that's your ultimate prupose i know, coz i'm smarter than you. i just wanna do well. not for you, but for me. its just step one to fulfill my dreams.
i don't understand. i really don't. why are you like, so IRRITATING??? why can't you just speak when you are supposed to??? why MUST you speak when it isn't neccessary for you to? 你不说话，没有人把你当哑巴. it is such a simple theory, why can't you understand that? i seriously do NOT believe that you are so stupid that you do not understand that or have NEVER heard of it before. (unless you really are, then i have nothing to say) you know that what you say can piss people off? and that you can hurt people's feelings?? you not having emotions DOES NOT MEAN THAT PEOPLE ARE EMOTION-LESS LIKE YOU. you are just so... argh! you know what? i can't even find a suitable word to describe you. and you know what? i am not going to waste my time over people like you. PEOPLE LIKE YOU DO NOT DESERVE MY TIME. (or anyone's time, for the record) and know what? i don't bloody hell care about you and your friends (猪朋狗友 - correct me if i'm wrong - ) coz you are not worth my time. i have my goals and targets, and it is not worth not acheiving them ALL. BECAUSE. OF. YOU. (piss me off again and you'll get it)
I WENT TO TJC OPEN HOUSE!!! its cool you know. haha, its like 1 class 25 people max. and they're reaally bonded. and you get to join 2 CCAs!! i wanna join DRAMA!! and the other one... i dn't know. haha, i don't know if i'll even get in!! TJ 1st choice, obviously. 2nd will be MJ. no VJ. heard some stuff about VJ. haizz. must JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!! work hard!!!
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Reason i decided to come blog was because I am thoroughly angry furious, cross, heated, mad (informal) raging, provoked, outraged, annoyed, passionate, irritated, raving, choked, infuriated, hot, incensed, enraged, ranting, exasperated, irritable, resentful, nettled, snappy, indignant, irate, tumultuous, displeased, riled, up in arms, incandescent, ill-tempered, irascible, antagonized, waspish, piqued, on the warpath, foaming at the mouth, choleric, splenetic, wrathful, at daggers drawn, in high dudgeon, as black as thunder, ireful. -CENSORES TEXT HERE- My original plan was to arrange for a chat during the meal together and catch-up. But my plans were never fulfilled. It's my fault for having to YES, IT BLOODY HELL WAS MY OWN DAMN FAULT. I brought this upon myself. THANKS FOR TREATING ME THIS WAY. None of them understood my intention at all.. Inadequate, useless, feeble, poor, sorry, miserable, petty, worthless, meagre, pitiful, woeful, deplorable, lamentable, trashy, measly, rubbishy. Maybe if i pretend hard enough I will gradually start to believe in it. You know, I value friendship more than studies, but no one knows. I have many interests, but no one knows. I wish to complain all about everyone else, but I cannot find someone I can entrust. From putting these to words, I found out what I'd become to be, the word I forever shun: INTROVERT. I may have my expectations, but they are simple to fulfil. Why, oh why, can't it be right for once? I want to be somebody. Stay strong, bel. You can pull through it and emerge stronger. It's not that you are not worthy of them. They aren't. Miss Right has not appeared yet. But she will. This time, I wonder what it feels like, 'Cause nobody wants to be last one there, -Gotta Be Somebody; Nickelback
Greetings! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL BLOGGERS (& blog readers without exception)! For the sake of 2009, I shall write a post in lieu of the new year and report on the first day of school. The first second of the first day of the first month of the first term of the new year in school as a Secondary 4 in 4L is a day different from the other 364 days of the year. 2009 is a year I dread most of all the years of my existence. Secondary 4, tests & exams, and the ultimate goal, O' Levels. The unchangeable fact that I react most strongly in the new year is that I've grown older and I. Do. Not. Want. To. Grow. Up! Ask Z. Ever since I'd turn 13 I never wanted to grow up. At the end of Sec. 1 I was pouring my sorrows to him about being in Sec. 2. Now look, here comes the Sec. 4. Is it just me or does it happen to other teens too? I want to be like Peter Pan, living in his Neverland, never having to grow up and receive responsibilities, never having to go to school nor be put in an office. "To live, would be an awful big experience." "To die, would be an awful big experience." As quoted by: "Peter Pan", Jeremy Sumpter Ha. But no, this does not mean I'll shirk all responsibilities in my life and start living aimlessly. I'd say I'm responsible, to a certain extent. Then there's the dreading oh-so-much of being Sec.4s and having to deal with O' Levels. Yes, I jolly well know it's pointless. I'd still have to face reality, don't I? I'm merely stating what I feel, irregardless. I had a conversation with Y online about the future of ourselves. It's really a wide world out there, much undiscovered by a mere me. His choice of Computer Engineering really astounds me. So on the 1st day of school, a few events happened. Miraculously, I was in school by 7! Man, it's disheartening not to have any "distant company" like Giraffe and K to walk with to school! I miss walking to school with J... R gave me an ice-cream handphone strap as a souvenir from China. It was then that I found out she took the same almost exact tour as her when I went to China last Dec, SA Tour. Now H, R and I has ice=creams of a kind and even a wallpaper to accompany it! :D There was a 2 hour long sickening never-ending talk in the assembly today. Had a rough look at the freshies, and trying to get used to the Sec3 boys with their long pants! (Esp. Aaron! OMGosh how cute. Hur hur.)Yeah man, I cannot wait to see how HANDSOME Isaac will look in his pants. HA HA. J, here are the updates in school you wanted to know considering you're already out of school. Mr. Tan had been considerate enough to change our places for the well-being of us, to "make new friends". I salute him for being such a form teacher who can stand in our shoes for doing so! I'm contented with the position of my seat, in terms of location. All I wish for, is to be able to get along well with my neighbours and not be influenced by A's sleepy spell! :p My seat has a bird's eye view of the toilet, or rather, the people going to the toilet it provides an alternative source to passing boredom! It's frustrating when you cannot find company after school for lunch. But thankfully I extended my search to outside school premises and found N! As always, the gentleman made me wait an hour for him to arrive, starving my stomach and torturing my legs by arriving after 3. Headed to KFC and chatted while we ate. Ho ho ho, I'm sorry to have put off playing bowling and pool. It was unlucky for you we couldn't play basketball as well. If only K were there, he could have provided a Tapz card for us. Heh. All the getting used to in school had really drained the vigour out of me I went back and soundly slept to the extent of missing 3 missed calls after a chat with J on school. Maybe the goal setting had an impact on me, I see myself having the "mood" to set goals. Yes, you never know when it comes and when it disappears. I got to grab this time to settle myself down to start real work, to empower myself to be up on standards with my final goal. This new year hadn't been much of a new feeling for me. Was it due to the fact that for once, my family didn't go overseas this holiday? Did I miss the chance to renew, energise, recharge myself? I have been living each day as it passes the whole holiday, and have missed out on the goodness of life.
okay... the blog's quite dead la... but i shall update coz i got nothing to do lol!
i really gotta say the sec3'09 did a wonderful job for this. i don't really know how much effort they put in, but it was a huge success. i think everyone loved it, and enjoyed it alot. really, this sec3 batch planned the best welcome party (to me, i don't know about the others). i don't know how to thank them or compliment them or anything, but seriously they deserve it. even when leona thought she lost her handphone, they really handled it well, especially queenie. i want you guys as my classmates, really, even if it means doing sec1/2/3 all over again. i'll try name all of you sec3s, so pardon me if i missed out any names okay. SUPER THANKS TO PINGSHUANG EDNA JAX REBECCA YUQUAN HANYU SARAH DEBRA FAITH QUEENIE MEIYING KEITH KENNETH JEREMIE. i hope i didn't miss anyone out. drama, you rock. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! (mingwei included)Love, JOVYNE xD
8:30 PM.
" Thursday, January 29, 2009
2:06 AM.
" Sunday, January 25, 2009
;Marshmallows for Breakfast, Dorothy Komsoon
t-l
r
ng-g
l
-j
)m-tl-j) 
It may be hidden but aren't they horrid to the sight? Hope they don't catch your eye [+ YUCK.
I unsurprisingly said I grew fatter (again).
When I met J I asked if I looked different and she said yes.
D said I look different. 
(Awkward shot. =\)
(But I still love myself!)
Disclaimer: There's a difference between the teen kind of self-consciousness and DBB!
Bottomline: 8 hours of sleep is the best! Now scurry off to cuddle & hug your pillows and bolsters and slip into slumber land!
The words carved on the one above are 牛·福·圆年·春. Can you make them out? 
I did this 纪! Mum's surname!
Lin's 梁嘉洳.
12:20 PM.
" Saturday, January 24, 2009Love, JOVYNE xD
2:06 AM.
"
The arrival of Sec.1s! Was looking forward to how they looked like. o.0 8/12 recruited turned up.
Audrey came today too, which served as a surprise 'cuz i wasn't expecting her. Turned out she looked for her other friends and I didn't receive her attention as much as I expected.. [RANTS AT A.] xD
We did 1 hour worth of warm up, which includes 10 minutes of running under the scorching sun( that as usual, won my disapproval) and stretching enjoyment( note my sarcasm xD). Followed by 1 hour of techniques and another of dance. Techniques, as usual as always usually, is not my forte. Gee. But I did use the time productively. HEEEHEEE. Frankly, it's the funkiest time I had minus the technique-formal business. [Winks at O.]
.. is pretty much smooth flowing, with some invisible glitches I can choose to ignore.
*Sorry for letting you down C, but I shall continue this the next time I come, along with CNY foreword. I warned you!
*+photos comin' up!
+ spring cleaning of my pictures
+spring cleaning of my song collection
+uploading the Labels Or Love video for K T.T
+run online errands
+++
7:03 PM.
" Friday, January 23, 2009Love, JOVYNE xD
4:49 PM.
" Tuesday, January 20, 2009
天空突然灰了 压向肩头
你给的出路 我还不想走
躺下看乌云 难捉摸的形状
好像有话要说 却沉默 我们会不会那样
oh baby 倔强到最后
变成阵风 各奔西东
雨像眼泪 暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪 很想坠落
可惜地上 挤满笑容 哪里有空
天空像累了 沉睡在心中
谁再仰望 都无动于衷
每一朵乌云 原来是什么颜色
为了谁而不同 我们可不可以
oh baby 不要倔强不放手 学会宽容
雨像眼泪 暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪 怎么坠落
有谁会懂 oh 谁会让它停留
oh my baby
来一场暴雨 把我卷走 有没有用
雨像眼泪 暗自汹涌
却不敢放肆挥霍 这点痛
雨是眼泪 很怕天空
一无所有
雨像眼泪 暗自汹涌
我知道天空只剩这点痛
雨是眼泪 偷偷坠落
伞下的你 刚好经过雨是眼泪 - 飞轮海
no special reason. its just a damn nice song. 心里，只剩下孤单的痛与寂寞的眼泪。。。Love, JOVYNE xD
6:34 PM.
" Thursday, January 15, 2009Love, JOVYNE xD
7:41 PM.
" Tuesday, January 13, 2009
“我要开始奔跑 碰到障碍就跳 我要一路冲到目标直到最后一秒！！！”我已经长大©棒棒堂Love, JOVYNE xD
5:26 PM.
" Monday, January 12, 2009
曾存在你的拥抱和温柔
撕开票根独自重游票
价是想念你的痛
你说做朋友并不是朋友
我们比路人还陌生的多
感情的废墟重建以后
谁会偶尔回来走走
我站在回忆的入口
手握紧左胸口 暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪 是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的 秘密花园中 你从没走
我说的爱你说的太自由
自由到仿佛我只是说说
未来的风景我没爱过
我只想念你的所有
我站在回忆的入口
手握紧左胸口 暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪 是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的 秘密花园中 你从没走
爱你想你都以极速向回忆暴冲
他们能看见的是虚伪的从容
我站在回忆的入口
手握紧左胸口 暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪 是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的 秘密花园中 你从没走寂寞暴走 - 飞轮海 这就是所谓的爱情吗？寂寞暴走。。。心里因为没有了你而寂寞到暴。。。可以这么说吗？哈哈，我想，我宁可享受爱你痛苦的路，也不要寂寞。。。因为寂寞的感觉，真的好难受。一个人，没有人关心你，体会你，分担你所有的痛苦 - 不用说所有，一小部分就够了 - 寂寞，真的，真的，真的很难受。你好啊，永远都不会寂寞，因为你身边有那么多朋友围绕着，不会寂寞。我呢？我死都不要寂寞。因为爱你，变成了我生活的习惯，也以其习惯了爱你的痛苦。有时那痛苦会涌上心头，痛到心好像要碎裂一样。死，会解决所有的事吗？受不了痛苦，不要寂寞，那，好有什么选择呢？死，我也怕。但怕的不是过程，而是死后的方向。那时的迷乱，我好怕。。。Love, JOVYNE xD
4:36 PM.
" Wednesday, January 7, 2009make them wait. THEY BLOODY HELL WEREN'T EVEN WAITING FOR ME, I'm just a tool that delayed them. They are just doing ME A FAVOUR.
It's my fault I had to go run some errands before meeting them, which included receiving the x'mas gift from Anna's class and receiving the NEWS THAT SHE WASN'T JOINING US.
It's my fault I EVEN ATE.
IT'S TOTALLY MY FAULT I CALLED THEM OUT TOGETHER.
To find the one on this life,
The one we all dream of,
But dreams aren't just not enough,
So I'll be waiting for the real thing,
I'll know it by the feeling,
The moment when we're meeting,
Will play out like a scene,
Straight of the silver screen,
So I'll be holding my own breath,
Right up 'til the end,
Until the moment when,
I'll find the one that I'll find the one,
That I'll spend forever with.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in there hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me like that,
'Cause nobody wants to do it all on their own,
And everyone wants to know they're not alone,
There's Somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
11:28 PM.
" Friday, January 2, 2009
It'll be a year of self-discipline, drive, motivation and achieving goals. I'm sure in this course of achieving my goals, I'll accomplish much more in the process.
I hereby extend my wishes to all taking O' Levels this year!
During a similar topic with X, X revealed to me she wants to be a STORYTELLER! She even told me about the story of her vampire autobiography. (Don't you know she's a vampire in discreet? o.0)
Was awake by 5.45 as Lin got a long way to her new school, RV, with the company of Dad & Mum.
Thanks for the fruitful ride home! (I have uncovered a secret.)
5:22 PM.
"
okay. its 2009. it'll be a stressful year, a super busy one, coz there'll be SYF, drama night (i hope its still on...), prelims and olevels (ARGHHHH!!!!). hmm... i hope i can survive this. all this is just a test of patience, and peseverence, and luck. i don't know, but i kinda feel good about this year. i may be wrong for all i know, but hey, gut feeling... so far i've got suuuuper nice teachers - helen chew for form and english, mr. chan for a/e maths and co-form, ms. chan for chem (she may be naggy but she's quite okay), mrs. law for history (she's suuper cute!), and NOT ong eng kiat for physics! he gives good notes, but he totally can't teach. only thing - the seating arrangement!!! garh, mrs. chew didn't change it!!! we just sat back our old arrangement from last year la!!! OMG. i don't want...
i've got new year resolutions. just thought of it =DDD
1. olevels max 9 points!!! its susan's target, and my dad's as well! and IF i meet it, wellll... of course there's reward la! i won't reveal it just yet ;)
2. watch LOLLIPOP perform live!!!! (this only comes true if 1. does!!)
3. exercise more!!!
4. buy my cufflinks!!!!
5. CALVIN KLEIN apparel! (i dont really care if its CALVIN KLEIN or CALVIN KLEIN JEANS)
6. go for FAHRENHEIT autograph session!!!!
nothing much else... some are kinda unrealistic but... it will come true if i do something about it!Love, JOVYNE xD
SLEEPOVER
SPORTS BUDDY
improving on INTERPERSONAL RELATIONS
BREAKING DAWN
LOCK-PROOF journal
a DUMBBELL
GOSSIP GIRL dvd
TWILIGHT book series
a game of TENNIS