I KNOW YOU LOVE ME ;D

2009-10-30T11:53:00.000+08:00

HEYY there's something wrong with this damn blog so check my otherblog crazymadnuts.blogspot.com for posts kk.

JOVYNE xD

2009-10-23T09:44:00.000+08:00

I'm bloody pissed. Is it my phone's problem (highly unlikely, given that i just repaired it) or is everyone not replying my messages? DAMMIT. ↲I feel like killing people. ↲JOVYNE.

2009-10-19T19:53:00.004+08:00

6 DAYS 6 DAYS 6 DAYS!!! dammit i'm seriously freaking out. i wanna do well for o's, but i feel like i can't. i don't know why. please please not let this end up like my sec2 streaming... i don't wanna be disappointed again, i really want to finish this well... i think i can, i'm hoping i can, but can i??? will i? just look at how much people improved, look at guan xiang, look at isabel. and here i am, moving backwards. that feeling sucks. gosh i don't wanna feel like timo!!
timo don't emo anymore. think positive. we all need to. we all need to try at least. and know what? as i was typing this timo told me i'm emo-ing. and this post is still under construction. like seriously! he's psychic! (i got that right now:D)
just jiayou people. hang in there, its just a week left. then another 3 and its over:) believe that you can, you know you can, you know you will:) go for it, we're all fighting this monster together:D

JIAYOU!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-10-14T08:58:00.001+08:00

now that is what i call cute :D

*note: ming guan make sure you get pics that look like that nexttime for future Guess! episodes;) make it CUTE;D

JOVYNE xD

2009-10-12T20:14:00.002+08:00

okay.. havent updated in a long time. haiz. o's are coming. and everyone's panicking. even those who seem like they don't really bother. i'm freaking out. and my tuition teacher spent half the tuition session telling us how to prepare for o's. and what we should do. i'm still nervous. i wanna do well. i need to do well. i can't not do well. if not. if not. if not i don't know what will happen. oh man i feel like i need to study more. if people can study so much in one day what in the world am i doing when they're studying?! NOTHING. dammit this sucks. if i can buy anything in this world, it'll be time.

JOVYNE.

2009-10-05T18:00:00.003+08:00

ohh man i had a great laugh reading timo's latest blog post. damn its super hilarious :D
ohh and how do you spell that word. that can read people's minds and predict the future and know things people don't know, that word. sai-kick. HOW TO SPELL!!!! SOMEONE PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME. THANK YOU.

JOVYNE xD

[is happier and not timo today!!]

2009-10-04T19:59:00.004+08:00

最近，沉默了。我相信，我能坚强的熬过去。你们的鼓励，让我更用功，让我为目标更努力得往前冲。往前看。不再回头。不再让那些不好的回忆拉住我，把我捆在过去。人，要面对未来，相信未来，才能坚持活下去。我不要让你失望，不要让自己失望。未来不是么梦。未来一定能成真。我相信这一切都是值得的，因为我好想，好像考好。我知道我的目标，我的动力，我的梦想，会让一切变值得，会让我坚持到底，倔强的熬下去。剩二十二天，我们一起熬的最后二十二天。过后，我们全都各奔西东，但要永远记住最初的梦。黑糖秀，哈哈。为了你，为了他们，为了自己，我一定能成功。不许失败。

最近，一些事情让我很烦。也许，我真的太弱了，没有勇气说出心里话。但你也不曾为别人着想过。我真的大开眼界了。人，原来是那么的自私。

也许，我没有勇气对你说实话。不舍得让我们的关系这样化为乌有。看着办吧。

最近，一些疯狂的人的举动，让我超烦。有时真想把这一切忘掉。有时真想不理你们。有时真想揍你们。我忍。二十二天，算什么。我都忍了那么久。不要让我爆炸。

JOVYNE.

2009-09-22T18:16:00.008+08:00

PRELIM RESULTS SUCK.
DAMMIT I NEED TO BUCK UP.
AND WHAT AM I DOING HERE.
UPDATING.
crap i really need to get a move on with studying. chionged abit yesterday. but it won't be enough to take me where i want to. and i wanna see you there too:) work towards it!
its our last lap before the final showdown.
our last showdown.
so we shall work hard, and play hard after.
till then, i'll work hard. i try to.
prelims will be my motivation.
so will you people.

JOVYNE xD.
we'll finish this, hand in hand. all of us.

2009-09-19T14:10:00.005+08:00

did CIP at simei yesterday. ran from top to bottom floor of block 123 with qi jing jing ying ho ming qiong xi. collected newspapers and OTHER RECYCABLE item. haiz. tired out after that. coz our block was the biggest but the collection point was just at our void deck. haha. our group not bad, everyone worked hard, even though ho ming didn't dare to ask he made up for it by carrying most of the things to shunyi. on the contary, other groups just slacked around after finishing and didn't even bother to help move things up the lorry when GIRLS were doing it. its really this kind of heck care attitude that further confirms how i feel. tsk tsk. they know who they are, i don't have to mention names, even though i really feel like it. hehs.

but never mind, leaving IRRESPONSIBE people aside, me jing ying shunyi qi jing shih han leon and ming guan went to east point BK for lunch. sat there and chatted for around 2 hours? i don't wanna say what we talked about. >.<
你看看我站在这里陪你等雨停
蒸发后的回忆总会变成水蒸气
okay lol i suddenly remembered this part while waiting. hehe!! then walked to shunyi's condo in the rain to borrow umbrella to go home. ming gian went back to school for cca >.<>

Love, JOVYNE xD

心情总有DOWN的时候想找人诉说

没有抱怨没有等候是你给我的承诺

敞开心胸去追寻快乐的出口

别怕寂寞因为有我们在背后

假如以后我们全都各奔西东
要永远记住最初的梦

2009-09-11T20:25:00.002+08:00

TIRED. thats the only word i can find to describe today. really tired me out. me jing ying shunyi leon ho ming ming guan qiongxi went to east coast to play again today:) well it rained so we camped out at some void deck at marine parade for a while to play and eat. quite fun, had a great time sabotaging some people at monkey;) haha. HEYY MONKEY!!! i think only me and shunyi understand *wink*

rained stopped after that so we went down to east coast. rented 5 bikes for 3 hours. like, crazily, we cycled for 3 hours.. rode tandem bike with shunyi, super fun!!! I HATE THE GEAR... haha said and heared that ALOT:) caught about 13 or so airplanes, still short of three. haiz. okay only some people understand the airplane part;) hehs. after that sat around and played zhong ji mi ma. super amusing:D damn funny sia... lazed around for a while, cycling for 3 hours can really wear you out. went to macs, some settled dinner there, others just waited around to go home together. ho ming left by then. our road map!!! LOL. so we took 31 back, and i almost fell asleep. LUCKY NEVER FALL ONTO THE PERSON'S SHOULDER SIA....

ohhwell. had a great time today. this could well be the last time i'm going out with the gang before o's. really enjoyed myself today, especially so since we only have a few months left together. before we go our separate ways. hopefully i'll still see some of you for another 2 years where ever we end up, but basically, this is our our last year. i've learnt to appreciate what we have, and not just wallow in whatever's pulling us down. look on the bright side of life:) at least i have you guys:)

JOVYNE xD

2009-09-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

finally.
prelims are finally over. couldn't wait for it to end at first, coz it meant no more studying for a while. but when i finished my last paper the JOY and EXCITEMENT wasn't there. i don't know why.
at least i went out to play today :) went to bugis watch G Force with qijing shunyi jingying shih han leon timo and ming guan... so cute:) MICE AGREE WITH ANYTHING! haha i don't mind being a mouse ;) LOL. overall enjoyed myself this week. went out twice! FUN. and i realised something. even though the movie isn't nice, you can still forget everything that's weighing you down.

where can i go next?
what should i do?
what can i do?
NOTHING.

JOVYNE.

2009-09-01T16:08:00.003+08:00

OKAY. i'm back here again. coz i'm bored and have nothing to do. although i should be studying. but i finished 2 emaths paper1 already. so yeah. slack abit more now:) lol went out for movie with qijing shunyi jingying shih han zhenyan and corinne yesterday! and prelims aren't even over yet >.< watched The Proposal. very funny. laughed alot man ;D hehs. we were like planning after prelims or o's go shopping at bugis street or far east :))) wheee!!! shopping time!! FUN FUN FUN!!! shunyi wants to buy a dress!! or two. haha i wanna see her in 1! never see before, can't imagine. whee!! we all wear together someday! LOL. okay sudden;y so hyper.. ZZZ must wait till all the supid exams end first. haiz. this is what i learnt after numerous experiences: IF YOU LOOK FORWARD TO SOMETHING TIME PASSES EVEN SLOWER. IF NOT, TIME WILL PASS LIKE AN F1 CAR RACING PAST THE SINGAPORE FLYER. okay lol.... jiayou people! 3 more days to end of prelims, i don't know how many more to o's. PLAYTIME BABY!

Love, JOVYNE xD

i may just not go for prom night ;D (and i'm proud of it!)

*BLOGGER STILL DOESN'T LET ME POST PICTURES!!! ARGH.*

2009-08-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

haven't updated in a long long time. prelims, studying >.< seriously. no time. till now lol. i have 4 days to study for 4 papers! so, not bad :)) went out to watch movie yesterday! see, i'm starting to relax already. LOL and exams aren't even over... okay. JIRO <333 just celebrated his birthday. on 24th august. HALFWAY through my prelims.. lol okay. andd.... like there's nothing much else. and i realised. during exams i don't do well initially. only after that do i start doing better. like 越战越勇 something like that. and the compose bar is back! yay i'll find some time after prelims to post some pictures. i just hope it won't disappear again. 最近心情很糟糕。应该是缺乏睡眠的关系吧。不够睡心情就不会很好。会很想打人。尤其当你看到一些欠扁的人，心情就会更糟，更想打人。但还是不能打。怎么办，命运就这么喜欢作弄人。恨不得快点离开这烂学校。

为未来加油，come on!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-08-14T19:36:00.000+08:00

TIMO DON'T EMO... even though you're called emo timo.

i was blog hopping and i kind of realised i'm in the same boat. procrastinating too much, slacking, thinking i can do well. okay fine, ca2 results may not be accurate coz i didn't study for my tests, but prelims are in less than week away. oooI DON'T FEEL NERVOUS THAT'S THE DAMN PROBLEM!!! i shouldn't be here. guess what i spent the whole afternoon doing a recording marathon. Fringe, The Mentalist, Life After People, CSI:Maimi, This Is Home... i can't stop i don't bloody hell know why. i should have just stayed back to study today.

BLOGGER SUCKS.

JOVYNE.

2009-08-07T18:30:00.000+08:00

OKAY I'M, HERE TO UPDATE. REQUESTED MY DEAR MEIMEI >.<

well. we celebrated national day today. SHUNYI PLANTED A TREE!!!!

lol okay that's lame. me jingying shunyi qijing leon ming guan went to pasir ris library to study after that. we ended at 9 plus, not so bad. haha. mrt-ed down to pasir ris, crapped all the way down (: JUST AS WE WERE ABOUT TO ENTER WHITE SANDS WE SAW GUANXIANG. this part is super funny. we all stun when we saw each other, all stare stare stare. STARING MATCH LIKE IN CHEM (: haha then ask what you doing here. wha guanxiang go fly kite ((: then i don't know who asked, then he said go watch movie. i think leon said wha with elaine ar. then silence. *crow goes: ark ark ark...* he never say no!! that's the funny part HAHA!!

okay. best part was. we were in the library. studying. and qijing started waving frantically. and everyone turned around to look who was that person. and we saw. JAMUS. and co. i don't know if i should say man. no one blogged about this. yet. okay i shan't say. if not very EVIL. LOL I FEEL SO LAME.

after that i wanted to take neoprint. we were standing there for like half and hour deciding whether to take or not. HALF AN HOUR. finially everyone said okay. FINALLY. then qijing was super happy coz one person only need to pay $1.50. funny. but it's worth it la. it was super fun!! totally chaos in there, people do stupid things and everyone was laughing like mad. POEPLE DO FUNNY THINGS IN FUNNY PLACES (((: well it was really fun. and some people 把第一次献给我们。OMG SOUND SO WRONG. but it's true!! LOL.

ENJOYED MYSELF ALOT TODAY (: didn't really had such a fun time in a long while. coz everytime i wanna take neoprint people don't want. i know its outdated, people have camera-phones, but its the experience that counts! and everytime i go home disappointed. finally. some people fulfilled my wish today. ITS REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME. EVEN THOUGH IT DOESN'T SEEM SO. memories...

JOVYNE xD

2009-08-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. Mentally, and physically. I just feel like giving all this up and running away. To some place quiet and peaceful. Where i won't have to hear your voice or see your face. Damn you.
JOVYNE

2009-07-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

ARGH THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH BLOGGER. I CAN UPLOAD PHOTOS!!!! stupid stupid stupid. garh. but never mind. i'll try to find another mean lol. maybe timo will upload them. i sent him all e pics except some others haas.

well today was shunyi's birthday!! on thursday me leon qiongxi baked chocolate cookies!!! shunyi likes chocolate LOL. qijing was SUPPOSED to come but end up can't >.< haha but it was fun! especially writing the words. had a great time (:

next day, which was today, we went to shunyi's place after school celebrate. there was this super cute hamburger cake!! OMG damn cute i tell you. too bad i can't post the pics >.< haha then we sing birthday song then i cut the cake. end up we use hand eat coz there's no fork, nor spoon, nor tissue. haiz. jingying wanted to cream shunyi so they were running around in circles then when shunyi ran past he i just stuck out my cream coated hand and tadah!! i helped jingying finish the job (: shunyi wanted to cream me back but i luckily i was standing next to the extra piece of cake she don't dare (((:

lol anyway after that we played ice and water. OKAY I KNOW ITS CHILDISH BUT THERE'S FOREVER A KID IN US RIGHT??? so we released it and played for fun!!! lol but i think everyone eljoyed themselves alot. haas JOSHUA AND JACOB SUPER CUTE!! okay lol.. ohwell, it was a great day (:

wasn't so high in such a long while (:

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-07-28T19:17:00.003+08:00

i've been trying to concentrate on my studies now that i've finished ai sha. or bump off lover. haas ai sha sounds cute LOL. but. it doesn't seem to work or something. maybe i need help. people to encourage me on. to not diverge and do other useless stuff. i don't know, but my classmates seem too hyper. haha. its good in some ways, but in other ways its not that helpful. hmm... i'll look around. but i kind of miss those times studying and gossiping LOL. haha. JIAQ maybe? we kind of have alot to catch up. well i fisrt got to get down to sms-ing. but i'm too tired to even find my handphone. its somewhere. can't remeber if its in the kitchen or the study room. or. i don't knoow. 2 clit tests in one day wipe out brains VERY effectively.

JOVYNE.

i just so want to believe, but memories keep holding me back.

Get Your Move On!

2009-07-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

Secretly I wonder

2009-07-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

Maybe I’m just jealous, i can’t help but hate her.

-- Girl Next Door, Saving Jane

Just completed a 4.9m run at PCN. Every time i do my runs, i derive a sense of accomplishment. All the positive charges will be attracted to me.

Pensive to the truest sense of the word. Throat burning. Going against the urge to stop running, to resist dialling her number. Blasted the music to stop me from thinking, but things just don’t work that way. Even came up with the conversation to begin with, but i know myself too well to actually do that. Would you reject me, shrugging me off with ‘I’m fine’s that implies we can no longer be like before? I know I wouldn’t like to face that hard, cold truth. Would you be too busy to care about other important affairs, your welfare, other than studies? And using that to get away from them.

Thought-heavy. They always ricochet whenever I’m on the tracks, coming and going as they please. Annoyed at her, but more so at myself for my lack of courage, the inability to voice my concern for her. I want to make a difference. I want to live A Life in its meaningful essence. Remember how you used to consider me a best-friend material? You’re much too precious and rare a friend, and I can’t afford to lose you. If only I hadn’t heard your inner thoughts, your skirmishes with life, your silent struggles, I’d be spared from this unsettling feeling.

To know that good, erstwhile friends (J & A) that i know yearn and are in need of That Person (that even a person like me could have easily taken up the role of) to make their lives complete makes me feel uneasy because i know I could have made That Difference in their lives, however minuscule it may be. In a way, I feel responsible for their sorry plight.

Tried consulting Okasan to ask for her advice. Didn’t know how to get my point across without making myself feel..highly. I want to seek advice. But there isn’t someone who can understand my quandary. You may not even appreciate my efforts.

You’re probably living in your own world right now, oblivious to these silly inane person pouring out her self-inflicted troubles for you.

Maybe it’s just you. Maybe you love being in control of things, wanting people to take pity on you, to soothe you. But do you know, it’s a two-way thing. It’s never always them who initiates. You got to do your part. I must admit, that your words had their way with me. I was affected by how you feel. It isn’t just ‘cuz of your words, I am, or had been, your friend once. I want to be there for you, when no one else will. I know you don’t like taking the first step. I wouldn’t mind doing it for you. But what stops me in my tracks is your adamant attitude, your stereotyped view, that no one would care, that no one can be trusted.

I should consider myself too lofty, to think I could be the one you can place your trust in. After all, when was the last time we’ve spoken?

My irritating bug living off my blood: Being tardy at work.

; Bel

2009-07-25T19:10:00.001+08:00

wha wha wha (((: i'm kind of in the K-POP craze *smile smile* haha but i'm a good girl, i don't forget my roots. i still love those whom i started out with :) haas so its just an add-on!! LOL qijing's birthday was two days ago. she got this box full of korean food. haas that person wants to make her fat >.< OOPS. haas next is shunyi!! hehehehe.... we already decided what to do for her birthday but can't say yet. JUST IN CASE she reads this :P haha. IT'LL BE SO FUN!!! lol gotta go must study clit ):

Love, JOVYNE XD

2009-07-20T20:12:00.002+08:00

Some meaningful lessons:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

6. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

7. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

8. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

9. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

10. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

11. Takek a deep breath. It calms the mind.

12. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

13. Forgive everyone everything.

14. What other people think of you is none of your business.

15. Time heals everything. Give time time.

16. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

17. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

18. Believe in miracles.

19. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

20. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young

21. Everone only gets one childhood.

22. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

23. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

24. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

25. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

26. The best is yet to come.

27. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

28. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.

29. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

30. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

saw this on chelsea's blog. nice primary school friend. well, my heart was aching as i read through the list. honestly.

JOVYNE xD

2009-07-20T19:38:00.005+08:00

alot of things happened recently. some were happy, some got me bloody pissed, some broke me down. i cried. it was a really long time since i cried so freely. in months. i can't evem remember when was the last time i cried. it was a real relief. i finally managed to let it all down and cry my heart out. it seemed to relief me of all my troubles and pain. my heart was raging with anger before, yet after, i was unexpectedly calm and collected. i don't know why. anger. fear. jealousy. hatred. its all part of this ugly world we unwillingly call home. it takes up one part of us, be it a tiny fraction or if it is the principle of life we live by. definitely, i have thought of suicide. who hasn't? especially when those you love and care and trust don't understand and just seem to want to go against you coz they just feel like it. you're left with noting else. just when you feel like that, you seem to lose all the will to live coz its just to painful to. it doesn't seem right to live in an empty shell. you're just better off dead. who would care anyway? NO ONE. i've dreamt of escaping into a whole new dimension. all dreams, never a reality. that hart-wrenching feeling just overcomes you when you come back down to earth.

REALITY. IT BLOODY HURTS.

JOVYNE.

2009-07-06T15:08:00.000+08:00

i'm back here again. i feel like posting. but i can't think of anything to post. dammit. this sucks seriously. okay. got it.

i'm going crazy again. over idols and stuff. just bought lollipop's album. cost bloody $27! argh the songs inside are damn nice. go listen. people usually will blast me for going crazy over idols, especially at this point of time, but what else can i do? no one asnd nothing else is worth my attention now. no one to love, to care for, no one to believe in, no one to cry to. that friend who will be there for me and be with me forever still hasn't appeared. i just read his blog, and he appreciates what we do. at least i'm thankful. someone does care after all. even though he doesn't know of my existance. ohwell, HECK CARE.

Loev, JOVYNE xD

2009-07-06T12:06:00.001+08:00

sometimes when i open the page to post, my mind goes blank. i suddenly don't know what to type. is my life that empty?

JOVYNE.

2009-07-03T12:58:00.000+08:00

yay i'm blogging from my handphone!!! hahas but i cant seem to backspace lol... zzz. always wanted to try, finally got the chance!! hehe. but i'm using my house internet, not the paying kind. so, it's free i hope (: lol nidda finish my hw nw. byeee ~~

2009-07-01T10:47:00.000+08:00

YAY the blog's finally looking more complete ((: THANKS BEL!!! been slacking this hol. should start on my homework soon... haven't even completed holiday homework!!! ZZZ. okay. shouldn't be too addicted to my idols now.. MUST LEARN TO CONTROL. i doubt i can HAHA!! but must try lahh, no matter what (: okay. i'm too lazy i guess. must go back to school then i can start studying. the fact that it's already july doesn't seem to motivate me. i don't know why.. ZZZ. maybe if i tell myself: i'm doing this for you, would it work?? haven't talked about this kinda stuffs for a long time. working hard for people. you're my motivation. your smile can light up my world. its the light that gives the glow so i can continue. with work, with school, with life. convincing enough for me (: yupp. GOTTA WORK HARD PEOPLE!!! JIAYOU!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-06-27T01:34:00.000+08:00

Bel says:
I've fixed the profile part. See if it's to your satisfaction. Unsure if you want the calendar part. So i just left it there. you can delete the whole part if you don't like. As for the boxes under Wishes, maybe you'd like to do something about it. You might like to update the links as well. Well, job's done! It's 1.36 am now, *yawns*!

2009-06-26T09:27:00.000+08:00

I WENT TO WATCH TRANSFORMERS YESTERDAY!!! super fun i tell you (: really enjoyed myself. we initially wanted to go to plaza sing to watch, but we went online to check the seats, and there were only 4 rows right infront left >.< we wanted to. but SOMEONE overslept and we waited at KEMBANGAN mrt for 40 minutes. like, does it make any sense that 6 people wait for 1??? no right? HAIZ. ohwells, initial plan to walk around marina was scrapped coz of SOMEONE. Zzz. so we just had lunch and only had enough time to help my sis get a bday present for a primary school friend. then we hurried in and watch 10 minutes of advertisements. i was sitting right in the middle!! i think lahh. centre block, centre seat but further back abit (: nice view, but the seat was kinda wierd. MY ORIGINAL SEAT WAS BETTER aka more comfortable. i don't know why.. haha the movie was great. other than the fact that the storyline was kinda skimpy. EFFECTS WERE SUPER GREAT. and it was kinda funny ((: YAY had a great time yesterday. then i chionged home to finish my tuition homework and dinner then chionged to tuition. and leon was late haha!! he should have just brought his books out luhh... hahas, in all, thanks SHUNYI JINGYING TIMO LEON MING GUAN and the one who over slept aka QIONGXI for the great day!! (((:

Love, JOVYNE xD

ps, looks like i'm the only one posting...

and bothering to come online.

2009-06-19T10:01:00.001+08:00

I HAVE THE PICTURES EVERYONE IS WAITING FOR. i don't know if i should post it. like very evil like that lehh.. haiz. cant seem to decide whether to post it or not. ZZZ... never mind i shall wait to see if other people posted itor not then i post :) LOL.
GOOD NEWS CAME IN LAST NIGHT WHILE I WAS HAVING TUITION:

NO NEED GO SCHOOL NEXT WEEK!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-06-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

came back from east coast park 1 half hours ago. slacked abit, bathed then got down to sending people the pictures and posting them (:

well, we met at 220pm at tanah merah mrt. i reached at 2 coz i had nothing to do at home. okay lol. so qiongxi came, then zhuyun, timo, shunyi, and lastly ming guan. and well, no one was very late as expected. except the bus. haiz. we planned to meet 3pm in front of macs at ecp but we ended up meeting at some bus stop with leon and ho ming. at 3pm. hehs. then we wandered around trying to find the underpass to ecp and we fianally found it (: we went in macs and rested and i asked leon for help for tuition homework. and qiong xi and shunyi were like, ehh 不要做功课啦，这样我们很惭愧 lehh! super funny (:

this was damn spoiler. we wanted to go bowling but ended up the bowling alley was fully booked. haiz. so we wandered around aimlessly again till we decided on cycling. so we rented 7 bikes - the person must be very happy - and took off! well ho ming didn't know how to cycle so he and qiong xi rode the tandem bike. quite amusing sometimes (: hehs. so we cycled for 2 hours till about 545pm and walked to the food centre. it was like, 40 minutes away if i'm not wrong. so we walked and walked and walked. and we waited for jingying for 20 minutes. and i caught alot of planes!!! YAY ((: and ho ming, being the professional photographer, became the (in)famous paparazzi!! it was damn funny. i'll post the pics he took when he sends them to me (:

and so we went to the food centre. crapped like most of the way. and i realised, ever since jingying joined us leon and timo's handphone cameras never seemed to stop working. haiz. it became quite noisy and funny. ohwells. but it was fun (: we finally reached and took damn long to buy food. and guess what? we were too lazy to find a table (given that the food centre was PACKED) so we just went out to the breaker thingy and sat on top there to eat. it was damn cool - 9 of us sitting on top that narrow top eating with the darkening sky as a front drop. yeahs we faced the sea. SUPER COOL (((:

we finally left at about.. 8pm? yeahs and walked and walked and walked to bedok south ave 1. thanks to ho ming who led the way ((: the bus pro! coz we didn't know how to get back to the bus stop so we were kinda lost. and YAY! we found our way to a bus stop! bused home on 31 and here i am (:

PICTURES!

tadah (((: TODAY WAS SUPER FUN! LET'S GO OUT LIKE THIS ANOTHER DAY (:

Love, JOVYNE xD

(is very happy today, so she will go to sleep and dream happy things)

2009-06-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

i'm slacking alot this hols. i wanted to get alot done but in the end none. homework for example. the only thing i got done was resting my tired brain. can't wait for tomorrow ((: tomorrow's WEDNESDAY!! and we're going east coast!! it may be my last outing with my classmates coz of olevels. and jingying said: must take alot of pictures okay?? i would definitely. and this is the first time going out together for so many of us. i'm surprised by those who are going.. like ming guan and ho ming and qiong xi. never really gone out together.. i really will cherish it. and i really am looking forward to it (: never looked forward to an outing sooo much before. just pray the weather will be good (:

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-06-13T20:33:00.000+08:00

Ooo i found his name yesterday!! he's called THURE LINDHARDT from denmark!! it's kinda my first time liking some ang moh superstar. ohh and by the way, he's GAY. like seriously. ohwell, most hot ang moh superstars are gay. what can i expect. and in angels and demons, he's a Swiss Guard!! haha need to get my facts right. and doesn't he look a hell lot like LUCAS GRABEEL from HSM??

THURE!!!
LUCAS!!!
they look super alike!! i'm falling in love with him too!!! (((:

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-06-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

i have not gone crazy in a long time. i have been in the emo mood in the past few days. but thanks to a hot police officer and a hot rich spoilt brat, i've regained the crazy self once lost (: okay that sounds so... perfect english LOL! haha. i know i'm lag, but i just went to watch angels and demons. and like literally, i'm waiting for the bathroom. the show's really nice. its good, some parts are scary and quite dark but ohwells, you know what's coming up. what else can i talk about in such a show other than HOT GUYS? yeahs you can stop here. the rest of the post will be about hot super stars that even i don't know the name of (yeah i don't know his name..) well in angels and demons there's this suuuper hot police officer (my mum says hes a security guard) whose name i don't know. yes he is hot. like reaaaaally hot. and this is the first time i'm saying a white man is hot. like literally. HAIZ. i know i've checked myself into IMH again... and i'm gonna rattle on about LEE MIN HO. or GU JUN PYO if you wanna call him by his show name. he is tall, hot, has a hot bod, and is a perfect man all girls dream of. IF NOT WHY IS HE CAST AS LEADER OF F4?! yes. i know. you're gonna say i'm crazy again... I DON'T CARE HAHA. 'm just gonna be myself and nothing and no one will change that fact. HMPH! i am gonna research on that hot police officer's name.. i am desperate (:

JOVYNE xD

2009-06-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

so much have happened, but i'm just thankful its the holidays. i write a blog post everytime the term ends, and it'll be about what i think matters to me the most, or just a reflection of some things that happened. i won't post it up today coz physics SPA is tomorrow. i'll try to post it by this week. i'm slacking like i don't know what, and i'm super guilty. i know its the holidays, i should be relaxing, but i myself know i'm over-slacking. haven't really touched homework. maybe coz this week's kinda busier than normal i guess. i just hope for the rest of the year to pass faster. then school will end sooner. and o levels will be over much faster. and a new life is all that's ahead for me. hoping TJC will be part of it (: and i'll happily say byebye to anglican high. i just hope it will all end...

JOVYNE xD

When was the last time you looked at the sky?

2009-05-27T14:32:00.000+08:00

When was the last time you looked at the sky?
These are just one of those days the sky appeared magnificently. They were taken this year, on some days.

Variation from different parts of the sky!:

& another few!

This is a bungee jump I took when we were shopping near Clarke Quay. I forgot the name of the shopping centre. The food court just overlooked this magnificent view I couldn't help but to take a shot of it!

Miss Noriff caught in action on one of those pre-examination lessons, while she was teaching.. Rise of Venice!

ATTENTION TO THE GIRL IN WHITE:
WHERE DID YOU DISAPPEAR TO? I WANT TO BAKE COOKIES, GO RUNNING AT BEDOK RESERVOIR, SHOP SHOP, TALK TALK!

It was during Chem lab one of those days with Cass when we formulated this. Hee hee. Insightful, isn't it?

2009-05-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps for the blog. its under renovation LOL! anyways i got back my results today. its... okay? it ain't good enough for me though. yeah yeah i'm 3rd my L1R5 lowest in class but so what? i didn't meet my target. so if i didn't, then it ain't satisfactory. geddit earthlings? blah blah blah you all say. walao get so high still not happy, trying to show off is it? YES I CAN READ YOUR MIND. ALL OF YOU WHO ARE BLOODY JEALOUS AND JUST WANNA PUT ME DOWN COZ YOU CAN'T GET THAT IN YOUR WHOLE DAMN LIFE. just piss off those who come here to make a fool of me (or rather yourself) okays. relax... i shan't get angry or start scolding them on my blog. i shall not stoop down to their level (its low enough already) coz i know i am wayyy higher. at least i can control my feelings and forget the past HAHA. ohwells, next is prelims so i nidda buck up abit more. to get max 9 points. but the funny thing is... i didn't really study for this exam. and yet, my results are kinda... unexpectedly good? i don't know. i just hope this will continue for olevels. haiz... if its the same as jingying's so called 'curse' then i'll do well for olevels. coz prelims won't do well, and the next exam, which is o levels, will do well. i hope? hahas. i'm talking funny now coz i'm tired. i wanna sleep now good night people (:

Love, JOVYNE xD

Thinking of attractive men...

2009-05-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

Thinking of attractive men releases hormones that help in skin complexion. --MYB

HA HA HA. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? So girls, don't restrict yourself in future. It's only for your own ~~pleasure~~ complexion! ;D

Yeah yeah now I know, but before I knew about it, Celeste, Nicholas, C's friend and I caught The Sniper on the 10/4. C's friend wondered if I drooled at Edison Chen's body. Ho ho ho. OOPS! =x

HA. HA. This is hilarious. Have you ever met a boy who talks so much? To the point of sending a 5-sms long reply, spamming 7 times in a row all at once and having to spend 50+ sms on 1 person within a day? Have you ever met a boy who is so direct (I know he doesn't mean it {x)? I have, and that's WJ the loser. Lost to me at Reversi, yet refusing to admit it. An infamous one!

Have you ever fallen in love with a black spectacles? No one would. Well, but someone did.

I've yet to get to the bottom of this. PENDING!

/// Oh did I mention? I find sporty people attractive. Ho ho ho. My type of "cup of tea"!

JOVYNE, THANKS HUH! THANKS FOR TRUSTING ME SO MUCH AND PLACING YOUR TRUST IN ME. At least it's good to know that I was there for you!

Sometimes, people discover you, even though they've been looking at you the entire time. Sometimes, we lose sight of ourselves when we're not paying attention. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. --A Place Called Here, Cecilia Ahern

; Bel

2009-05-24T13:45:00.000+08:00

hellos (: i've been MIA for quite some time coz i've been heading out and neglecting the computer. hahas. well, i went out on thursday to watch night at the museum 2. original plan was to watch Dive!! but ohwells, we decided on night at the museum 2. and totally no regrets. it was very cute and suuuper funny. one of the best films i've ever watched (considering i've not watch any for a long long time) even though it was a bit too draggy at times. Jed was stuck in that hourglass and buried up to his chest in sand and larry still had time to talk to amelia about love and ahem, KISS. i'm like, okay? this is not prioritising... lol.

anyways i went to watch Dive!! yesterday and too, no regrets. it was a suuuper show that was nice and cool and just enjoyable. it gives you a noce, warm, fuzzy feeling all over when he managed to do the 4.5 turns and came out tops to compete in the olympics. YAY (((: it is seriously a damn good show and it totally helps that for more that half of the show the boys are topless. and only in their swimming trunks HAHA! HAWT HAWT HAWT!!!

and after night at the museum on thursday i shopped around plaza sing and tadah! i found bling blings! hahas they're just little stones people stick on their handphones and whatever to make it glittery hehs. its only $2 at daiso (((: okays, here's my 杰作!!!

Calculator:

MP3:

Handphone:

All three:

so chios right? hahas! okay, of to have lunch! byes!

Love, JOVYNE xD

Shopping Spree~!

2009-05-24T00:24:00.001+08:00

Saturday the 23rd, the first weekend that's considered A WEEKEND since exams! Went out with Okasan & Linette to look for a pair of suitable heels for the upcoming fashion show urgently! Besides, I need to get the pair so I can make use of the time to practice in them, I repeat PRACTICE.

I tell you. We were amazing. We walked from 1 to 9pm. Our search ranged from Orchard to Bugis; Tangs, Takashimaya, John Little, Far East Plaza, Wisma Atria, Bugis Village & Street, BHG were those I remembered. To make things worse, the weather was so, damn, humid! Finally we managed to narrow down to 2!

So I say, DESIGNERS, you must must must must must must must appreciate the show that I'm going to get all right! Especially NSY, who claims my legs are shorter than 3 inch TSKTSK! You better watch out.

Oh and I'm mighty glad Kristy is the other one who's in the same situation as me! At least I'm not alone. ^^ Another topic in common to talk about ;D Helped the both of us to buy a black and white tube for this event today.

Linette wants to go run (hopefully) 3km with me tomorrow. It's such a big leap for her, really. I mean, before this year she was counted nothing athletic nor sporty. I used to always have to drag her to run with me. This is such a contrast to who she is now. Earlier today she was mentioning how toned her leg muscles are. She has become so tanned even Sherlynn can't recognise her. Oops!

Tada!

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door-- Girl Next Door, Saving Jane

JACQUETTA WHEELER+KARLIE KLOSS *faints*
"She's Miss Supermodel @ 13 and I'm just a girl dreaming.."

; Bel

Right now, No one loves me more than I do 1

2009-05-23T23:25:00.001+08:00

'Cuz her love is so contagious

I can proudly say, no one can love me more than I do myself right now! It's been awhile since I felt that. How I hope this feeling can last for a tad while longer. I cannot be envious of others more than I do so at myself at this moment.

Nope, it's not for the results.
Nope, not for WJ's incessant teases.
Nope, not for JS's flattery.

Maybe, it's the end of exams.
Maybe, I wouldn't have to cramp my head hard in the books.
Maybe, I had a fun day out with awesome friends today.
Maybe, I get to eat Subway for dinner!

IT'S ICE SKATING WITH CHAR & KRIS.
Man, how long had it been since I've last skated?

Despite it all, I know I deserve it. Today had been the best day for such a best workout in the worst temperature. At least I hadn't felt too reproachful for my diet today.

Thanks C & K, how grateful I am to have coincidentally bumped into you, coincidentally heard about your plans, coincidentally being invited, coincidentally ice skating, coincidentally have a fun day workout!

Hey POKs, I suddenly miss you guys! Miss the fun we had at ice skating. My first experience were shared with them. You don't know how much I treasure them, up 'til now! Pity Fugi Ice Palace closed, otherwise it would have been a hell MORE lot of fun!
Do you remember the Chen Yi Qing look-a-like we never fail to see at the ice skating rink then? He was here today! As usual.

Throughout the MYEs, I have:

MISS DONG to thank, for our multiple ongoing questions asked and answered through sms;

MISS TAN to thank, for assisting me in my revision in between her own (Her own effort had paid off, as always);

MISS CHAN Ru'er to thank, for willing to study with me after examination days and helping me in ways that couldn't have been better. (Yes, I know there isn't any photo of you, 'cuz we didn't take any photos of recent!)

MISS SIM HM, for never failing to meet me early in the morning every day and do some last minute recap with me when the sun's not out.

MISS CHIN YT, for being there to share donuts with me one fine day!

I'm pretty psyched up for the ~~art students~~ designers' Clean and Green event this 5th June, and am even more honored to be physically there to help them in a way I can.

I found a cookie recipe book and I'm determined to bake some cookies for the fun of it/ with some friends! Anyone interested? KC? A? XM? HM?

It's been awhile but I'm getting more and more addicted to Thursday issues of Mind Your Body. They have loads of insightful articles that piques my interest!

; Bel

2009-05-22T16:27:00.000+08:00

i am really very bored now. i'm so sian. i don't know what to do. i'm too lazy to get my dvd player. i'm too bored to do anything. what shall i post? my results? heh. keep waiting. i may sooner or later. or maybe not at all. i don't know. my results kinda suck. okay. i found something to do. i shall write out my results and calculate my L1R5. and after that i'll go stick the tiny stone thingy on my calculator and my mp3. hahas. bye (((:

Love, JOVYNE xD

ps, i am so lame... >.<

2009-05-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

i shall do a quiz! since i have soooo much time (((: YAYA NO MORE BOOKS/EXAMS! freesom!!!

#1.A. Arron (:
1) Do you love this person? yeah, but not as much as JIRO <33
2) Is this person your enemy? NO COZ HE'S PART OF FAHRENHEIT (:
3) Is this person taller than you? 177cm u say lehhs?

B. Billy
1) What do you really think of this person? i don't know him that well (my sec1 junior) but he should be fun and funny (:
2) What's their favourite colour? ehhs... i don't know >.<
3) Ever danced with them? NO.

C. CALVIN (:
1) Do you like this person? OBVIOUSY...
2) Where did you meet this person? at Kallang Indoor Stadium. 1st date HAHA.
3) How old is she? ITS A HE >.<>

D. DANSON (:
1) How long have you known him/her? erm.. almost 2 years HAHA.
2) Biggest regret? NEVER.
3) What do you like about him? HE IS BLOODY HAWT.

E. Evangelin? i can't think of anyone else manzz.
1) Have you met their parents? No, i don't need to haha.
2) Worst thing about this person? i don't know. haha.
3) Best thing about this person? She is damn hardworking. i should learn from her manzz.

F. FABIEN (:
1) Have you ever dated this person? I SO WANNA MANZ!
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? i have no idea. as soon as possible i hope (:
3) Do you go to school with them? I SO WANT TO...

G. Grace. why do i cannot think of anyone else?
1) Is she a good listener? i don't know...
2) Have you ever lied to this person? NO. i have no reason to.
3) Is this person nice? Yeah.

H. Hui ting.
1) What year are they in? 4?
2) Is he/she your best friend? just a friend.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? No?

I. Isabel (:
1) What is this person’s favourite food? i don't know haha.
2) How did you meet this person? classmates in sec1.
3) Do you trust them? hmm... i only trust my sister but yeah, i trust her alot compared to other friends...

J. JIRO <333
1) Do they have any siblings? nope (:
2) Do you know their favourite song? ROCK!!!!
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? I'LL FAINT. but won't happen yeah, so you won't catch me fainting.

K. Keith (:
1) How old were you when you first met? 14 haha.
2) How did you meet? DRAMA (((:
3) Ever danced with this person? no...

L. LU TING WEI (:
1) Do you like him/her? HE IS BLOODY HAWT WHY NOT?
2) What would you do if you had never met this person? LIFE WOULD SUCK.
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person? YESYESYES!!! I PAY I DON'T MIND (((:

M. Martin Kerh
1) Is this person older than you? Nope. My younger cousin.
2) Is this person single? heehee. i don't know. he stead before haha.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? not alot. he talks to my sister for goodness sake.

N. Nicola
1) Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? my junior lol!
2) Have you seen this person cry? i can't remember... i think so? during step down maybe?
3) Do you know this person’s middle name? i don't think she has one lol!

O. Owodog (:
1) Are you related? i wish. then i can get fabien's no (:
2) Could you live with this person? ABSOLUTELY (((: fabien would definitely visit i hope (:
3) Do you believe this person is gay? nope. o hope not anyways.

P. Prince?
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? i want to (:
2) How about a sleepover with them? DEFINITELY (((: fabien would definitely be there <33
3) Does this person have a job? singer/actor

Q. Qi Jing (:
1) Does this person drink alcohol? nope (:
2) Have you seen this person dance? yeah, SUJU dances. she does not dance like SUJU.
3) Where do they work? anglican high. working as a brain-juice donator.

R. Ryuk (:
1) Have you heard this person sing? nope. i don't think he can sing lol.
2) Do you think this person will repost this? he is a i-don't-know-what from hell manz.
3) What's one thing you would change about this person? nothing. i'll just want him to kill whoever i don't like. heart attacks are fine (:

S. Shunyi (:
1) Is this person taller than you? nope (: i'm taller HAHA.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? yeah (: we talk about hawt people a whole lot (:
3) Do they live close to you? yeah. less than 10 min away (:

T. Timothy (:
1) Would you do anything for him/her? not everything >.<
2) Have you been to his/her house? nope.
3) Do you know where she/he lives? yeah. in pasor ris that's all (((:

U. give me someone whoese name starts with U. i bet there isn't >.<
1) Is this person in a relationship? --
2) Is this person a dipshit? --
3) What colour hair does this person have? --

V. Vic Chou (:
1) Do you see this person alot? no. i have no inclination to.
2) How long have you known him/ her for? not really long >.<
3) Is this person your friend? NO. i wish manz.

W. Wenjie (:
1) Is this person quiet or loud? one of the most noisy people i have ever known.
2) Name a friend that both of you are close to? erm. i ain't close to his friends. i don't want to be HAHA.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black i think. never noticed.

X. Xin qiongxi.
1) Why are you friends with him/her? coz he's in my class lol.
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them? erm... lemme think. no. i don't think so. unless u count school field trips HAHA.
3) What is one thing you would change about them? nothing? ahh i know. make him sleep less in class HAHA.

Y. Ying En
1) Does this person wear make-up? don't look like she does.
2) Does this person play any instruments? yeah she's in CO but i don't know what.
3) What is their favourite sport? dunno (:

Z. Zhao'en
1) Does this person have MSN/AIM? i thik so but i never add HAHA.
2) Ever gone shopping with him/her? nope. only study hahas.
3) Does this person have any special skills? ehh... i don't think so ;]

#2.
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4...
i don't have a book near me and i'm too lazy to go get one ;]

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
a tablemat.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
CSI Miami (:

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
2.50pm?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
3pm.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my mum washing the dishes in the kitchen.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
this morning to take my SPA exam in school.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
surfing the net for more stuffs on BOYS OVER FLOWERS CAST <33 (((:

9. What are you wearing?
home tee and shorts O.o

10. Did you dream last night?
yeah but i can't remember what >.< i want to remember my dreams lol.

11. When did you last laugh?
just now when my sister told me a stupid joke (:

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
wallpaper and paint HAHA.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
erm... do exam papers count?

14. What do you think of this quiz?
kinda stupid. i do it coz i'm bored and i finished it half-way already.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Knowing (((: the ending is sad but i like it. CALL ME SADIST (:

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
O.o $$$ yay (((: i'd buy a house and car in taiwan, hongkong, LA and Hawaii. then i'd buy a private jet and hire a pilot and crew. then i'd buy many many many FAHRENHEIT and LOLLIPOP and LU TING WEI merchandise. then i'd save some. then i'd donate some. then i'd use some to save endangered animals and the world. and lastly invite all my taiwan idols to my house for a personal concert (((:

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
you know nuts about me. same goes for my friends ;]

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
make all the evil people good (: i can say byebye to police then >.<

19. Do you like to dance?
not really but i like watching people dance. it can be reaaaaly amusing sometimes (:

20. George Bush:
is some bloody idiot. i don't like him. he's the cause of everything bad >.< no offense to those who support him.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
erm... i haven't thought about this yet >.<

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Calvin (: chinese name is cheng2 wei1 (((: if you're smart you'll geddit HAHA.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
definitely. i don't wanna live here all my life (:

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
i ain't a believer but this should be nice of him: FAHRENHEIT and LOLLIPOP and LU TING WEI are waiting for you (: am i mean? they ARE older than me haha!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-05-19T18:18:00.000+08:00

chem and physics paper one was quite doable. should be able to pass. i hope hahas.

Love, JOVYNE xD

i fell for someone. and after more than a year, i managed to get over him. i immersed myself into something else to numb the pain, to make life seem more optimistic. how foolish i was! nothing could make life better, everything on this earth happens so world peace would never become a reality. i let myself fall into another world, where i hoped to escape from reality and live in another dimension where anger and fear never existed. i never realised the danger i put myself in, and now i do. when the bubble burst, i found mysef left with nothing. practically nothing. i'm just an empty shell with nothing left inside. nothing left for me to work towards. nothing left to keep me going. i'm questioning the purpose of my existance in the complex, cruel world where each man fends for himself. i don't see the meaning of life anymore. and why people say its colourful and it deserves our love and care, i will never understand. nochalance. my only facade to survive all this.

2009-05-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

its been hell of a 2 weeks that was long and torturous, but it also brought our the best and worst in people. yeah, its been two slow weeks coz i guess time just passes even more slowly when you're looking forward to something. i now learn how to appreciate freedom. but people are always greedy and i'm hungry for more. i just need a bigger cage, now that i'm no longer the little bird i was 1 year ago (even though my cage has been upgraded once before ;]) ohwell, that can be negotiated another time when my parents are in a suuuper good mood. anyways, its just 2 more days of torture till freedom reign supreme. till then, i'll be thinking of ways and means to make 48 hours seem shorter and less hellish. i but tomorrow's lunch date with qijing and anna would be my morale booster. i hope bel can make it too. ps, if you see this, its now at eighteen chefs. haven't been there for a loooong while. sonce my simei care centre days with my dear fellow ED-iots (((: bloody hell there's no tuition on thurs and sat!!! >.<

Love, JOVYNE xD

”

2009-05-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

“… to use visual cues to trigger me, like the sign I put up in my house that says ‘Breathe’. In this economy, it’s something everyone needs to remember.” Jean Chatzky

It’s the Harris and Popular Sale! I have this sudden itch to own Twilight series. Anyone willing to satisfy my humble request? ^^

Brief thank you to Jun Hao for the ~~preach~~ advice column. I know I can turn to you when I fall into the waves of low morale.

Read Patron Saint of Emotional Inertia again, that feeling came on again. I wouldn’t say I’m her fan. I wouldn’t risk my life for her autograph. It’s knowing that someone alive and kicking out there who is everything you wanted to be, the sparse hope of possibility that you can be like her, and the reality hitting you that you are not what she is, not doing anything you can to achieve that. You blame it on the lack of opportunity given to you, but you lament yourself for finding such an inexcusable excuse knowing opportunities are for you to create. How would you describe that?

I got to train my nerves by practising optimism. May I ask,how do you “have faith in yourself”?

2009-05-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

OMMG i have emaths paper 1 tomorrow and i went out today. haha i don't really care much anyways. haha my parents wanted to buy luggage or something. so just tag along. coz i'm damn bored at home. went centrepoint but i ended up at OG. i met my grandma and i dragged her down there with me. haha coz i needed some one to sponser me something that i REAAAAALLY want (: i saw this tee shirt, that some one said JIRO also have. i can't remember who but it was i DU member i think. if you see this please tell me i wanna thank you personally (: she said it was a cheer you up tee and JIRO has one. so i was damn shocked when i saw it in OG. it was i giordano (dammit how to spell??) tee and i was like, OMMG! and it DID look familiar haha. so my grandma sponsered the tee. it was $20 bucks manz! and i wanted to share the cost but my grandma say mever mind work hard get alot of As for her can lerh. its like, 1 A1 = $10 or something. i hope 1 A1 is worth much more than that. haizzz... anyways i'm just damn bloody happy now (: ahahahaha. tuition is so fun!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-05-16T16:46:00.000+08:00

i'm slacking like i don't know what nowadays. haha, maybe coz i only have 4 papers left lol! and its mcq for sciences and paper 1 for emaths. and paper 2 for emaths was hard, so this SHOULD be easy. heh. and i'm planning to go out already (: i guess maybe coz i've been stuck at home for too long studying - almost 1 month? plus exam days about 7 weeks. wow. i like, damn restless now and i wanna go out!!!! and watch movie and play and slack and eat and... i don't know. i wanna go DU gathering!!! wahahahahaha. i wanna go kbox with them!!! wahahaha. i don't know why but i miss them alot >.<>.< i wanna see them again!!! blehs.

JOVYNE.

“

2009-05-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

“You never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for it is painfully won, and it has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.'’ J.K. Rowling

When the examinations end, The mental chime will ring. It will be time, for self-renewal.

If I could, I would pluck out that sweet tooth lurking in the dark corner. The root of all frustrations. How do you silent the siren of junk food?

My mind comprises of 2 opposite poles that I have no control over. I have to do something. Train my neurones, maybe. Who has ever heard of evil triumphing!

I hear my body screaming at me to work out.

; Bel

2009-05-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

i feel like posting about random things lol.
i went to surf the net just now. about idols and stuff yeah, PREDICTABLE. and, when i think about all those encounters i have with them, those memories are just so special, and precious. even though its just 3, but its the secial 3. other people have more, but i tell myself not to be greedy. 3 is alot. to me. i'll just wait for the right chance to pass by. i'm leaving it to fate. and when i see videos of them, its like, they're huamn too. they have emotions, they feel sad too. and that is one thing that links us all ToGetHer. and i feel so warm inside. just to know that this is all happening to me. yet sometimes i wish i don't know these idols and stuff. then i won't be envious of people who have more chances to see them than me.
and... they're like dreams. the possibility of fulfilling those dreams are just so slim, yet there is always a ray of hope. HOPE. suddenly reminded of my essay. HOPE. we all need it.
so i shall not emo. shall i? emo-ing is such a funny feeling. you're dropping into thid bottomless pit of drakness and all things bad, but the mere fact that you emo makes you human, and that you have feelings. blehs. i confusing myself. i need someone to talk to. an adlut maybe? catherine's nice to talk to :)

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-05-15T17:40:00.000+08:00

physics today was screwed. the questions were suuuper tricky. its so... blehs. i just wanna go out. i wanna go for DU k-session this sunday. and my mum don't let. next week still have exams, yeah i know... SIAN. haizzz. haizzz. haizzz.......... i'm just so damn bloody tired. i don't wanna study anymore, my brain will shrink at the end of this year i tell you. i just wanna let go and run wild. but sadly, coz some people exist on this earth (the don't deserve to anyway) i can't.

JOVYNE.

2009-05-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

my hand is hurting like crazy... i don't know why haha. but only my right hand >.< and i think coz i i had my hist paper today. and i'm resting my hand on the table and only typing thhe keys within my reach. my left hand is super active now LOL. haiz.... its super scary when people don't finish the paper and you do. its like, you either didn't write enough or you did something wrongly or what i doon't know. its just bloody scary and it really hits your confidence hard. damn. this happened for SS, emaths and history. i'm just super scared now. i'm just happy to pass...

more updates:
8/5:
emaths - i think its screwed. maybe i'll pass?
clit - even an idiot would know, how can i possibly do well for this bloody hard paper?

12/5:
chem - i think i can pass. i hope i can pass...
history - most likely can pass, but no confidence to do well.

that's about it i guess. can't really type anymore. my right hand is hurting like shit manz.

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-05-11T13:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MUMMYS!!!! lol went out to Suntec Sizzler to eat haha. cam-whored like crazy when we came back.
presenting..... MY DEAREST MUMMY!!!!

*tadaaaa!!!! the blouse so damn cute right? mummy is still very young okkay!!!*

*ahahaha sister's cam-whoring time >.<*

Love, JOVYNE xD

[edit//]

watch this, please. click on it, its not a damn virus okay???

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

My Voice

2009-05-10T16:28:00.001+08:00

AH JOVYNE SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING I'VE BEEN PREVENTING MYSELF FROM GOING ONLINE, MUCH LESS BLOG YOU SEE B)

WANTED TO SAY YOUR POST BELOW IS COOL.
& ALL THE BEST WORKING HARD FOR MYEs. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT ;D
& HOW MIGHTY GLAD I AM TO HAVE YOU TO STUDY TOGETHER!
& HOW (AHEM) IS PESTERING THE HELL OUT OF ME (not in a negative way) & I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL YOU ABOUT IT SOON!

GOODBYE ;D

P.S. Happy Mother's Day to all MUM's of the world!

YES, THERE'S A SCHOOL HOLIDAY TOMORROW WHAT A BONUS FOR STUUUUUDENTSSSS d:

; Bel

2009-05-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

It's not the fault of the student if he/she fails because the year ONLYhas 365 days...
typical academic year for a student:

1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.

2. Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study.
Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE.
Days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days.
Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chewing properly & swallowing) - means 30 days.
Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days.
Days left 81.

7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days.
Days left 6.

9. For sickness - at least 3 days.
Days left 3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days.
1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday.
How can you study on that day ?!?!?!?!?!

Balance = 0.
How can a student pass ?????

LOL received this email HAHA ^^v

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-05-07T18:19:00.000+08:00

that would be my last post before mid-years, i didn't say anything about during ^^v heh, just updates of papers i've taken:

6/5 --
English: screwed
Social Studies: screwed super bad
7/5 --
HCL: too easy = become complacent = no confidence to do well

overall: SCREWED BIG TIME.

heh, my friend came up with this. and it is so totally damn cool. and sweet. and i feel so warm inside when i read it. even if its not the person you like who said it, but it just makes you warm and fuzzy all over ^^v

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up every day,
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
The first time i saw you i wanted to meet you again
The time i met you again i wanted to talk to you
The time i talked to you i wanted to tell you how much i love you
The time i told you how much i loved you i wanted you to love me back
Now that you love me back, i want never to lose you...
If the moments you were on my mind were represented by a stalk of flower, i can never walk out of this garden.
Your life is like a walk on the beach, maybe you've never noticed but there is another set of footprints always beside yours and that’s me.
The times when you see only 1 set of footprints is the time when u were at your saddest moments and i carried u up and continued the journey.

******COPYRIGHT******** ////// credit to JEROME :) PLEASE DON'T KOPE IF NOT I'LL REMOVE IT!!!

JOVYNE xD

2009-04-26T19:51:00.000+08:00

i shall try to make this my last post before mid-years...
i shall dedicate this post to my fellow ED-iots:

i just went to visit our ED blog. and i read a post by zhao'en. well, of all people, yeah, ZEN. and you can say i've seen the change in most of you. zhao'en being the playful kid who mixes with the guys all the time to one who knows how to appreciate drama. that's seriously cool. i don't really know what else to say. the sec4 syf people became more bonded. so did i, with the sec3s, especially the humanities people. i fianlly realise how important drama means to me after reading zhao'en's post. not that i never realised it before, but i now see HOW important it is now. yeah, olevels are drawing near, and i guess we should treasure the times we spend together. like how i surprised i was when i heard that zhao'en is studying with chelsea, of all people (given that they quarrel about almost everything ><) i won't limit this to within ED, but i find it kinda hard to spend time with my classmates. i did try to ask, but replies are mostly negative. drama seems to be what's pushing me on now. i don't find myself close to my classmates, more to ED now. i miss the 2 times i studied with you guys. i don't know why. and when you hear those emo emo song for friends, i find memories in drama coming to me. never once where it was memories with my classmates. NO OFFENCE, BUT THAT'S A FACT.

Love, JOVYNE xD

p.s. i agree with junni. even i'm biased or whatever, you should stand by whoever becomes president coz its what drama becomes after you step down as exco like us. me and chelsea didn't do a good job, so please please please do me a favour and make drama even better. do what we didn't (which is like everything). and sorry for making you clear up the mess we left behind. we can't be group8 gases, but more like group 1 metals upon reaction with water - EXPLOSIVE.

2009-04-25T10:40:00.000+08:00

haven't updated in a long time. needless to say for other people. just gonna do some simple updates, then continue my crazy studying for mid-years...

1. 2.4 run at east coast was fun :) had stitches half a minute after i started running >< by the time the 1st song ended it was gone. started increasing seed bit by bit then i finally came in 11th :) 1st - lishan (ED!), 2nd - liling (ED)!!! COOL RIGHT???

2. thanks wenjie for your help and all the encouragement :) i really got the courage to finally say it, after like, more than a year. i hope its stabalised now, and i can manage on my own. then people won't say i kao bei anymore >< and for keep telling me to go sleep. i finally slept at 9plus, but i woke up at 7.30... ps, thanks for lending me space in your locker ;)

3. ED!!! fianlly got around to studying with you guys. especially JAX and KEITH. who were there for both sessions. i hope they'll be there for future ones as well ;D

4. DAMN. mid-years are like, less than 2 weeks away? if i remembered correctly. and i doubt i can finish studying, coz i made the effort to come revive this dead blog... but i'll just do my best and study like an idiot.

5. my grades are kinda slipping. i hope its coz i sleep late and wake up early and i'm suuuper tired and can't concentrate. i hope this won't happen for mid-years. DAMN.

mainly, that's what happened to me since my last post. won't be seeing me around for much longer. and i finally used the computer coz i needed to download history powerpoint. BYE.

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-04-17T19:50:00.000+08:00

stepdown was yesterday. and it was a super emotional affair. alot of people cried. i didn't. coz i'll still see them tomorrow, and tomorrow's tomorrow, and till the end of the year. so i told myself don't cry. wait till the end of the year. wait. wait. i really miss drama. its really damn fun. everyone there is like, so enthu. and i really had alot of memories there. all thr acting, doing props, directing, and all the stupid, mad things we did together, everything. 3 years just passed like that. and its too late to have any regrets. coz there won't be anymore chances to make up for it. i don't think ihave any regrets. i made friends there, super good friends at that, had the chance to act in SYF, and experienced the most wonderful 3 years ever. all the ED memories are running through my head now. especially those memories i gained this year. with my Humanities Challenge people. it was a fun ride all the way. serious, at times, but mostly we had alot of fun with each other. and i finally got to know you guys better. after 3 years. NO REGRETS. i seriously am happy to know you guys. even though problems cropped up just before we stepped down, but i believe it'll all be over. maybe i'll blog about it someday. i'm kinda pissed at those people. but i won't ruin this post. maybe tomorrow. or tomorrow's tomorrow. i don't know. FAITH, JAX, JEREMY, KEITH and lastly REBECCA, not forgetting all the others who contributed to the wonderful memories, zen, kc, chelsea, jerome :), sheryl, and alot more others, too many names to mention. haha, those simei care centre days just came back. i don't wanna drag this on anymore.

"Once an EDiot, forever an EDiot"

©JOVYNE xD

SYF Afterthoughts

2009-04-16T22:36:00.001+08:00

I’m sorry. For letting you down. For failing your expectations.

Want to hide myself under the blankets, block out the worldly affairs, forget whatever wherever I am, disappear from the face of the earth. Don’t want to have to try mighty hard to give the response everyone expects to hear. Don’t want to think about it. Don’t want to face it. Want to remove whatever connections I have with the outside, block myself from everyone, cloud everyone’s voices and thoughts, mute my inner self. Escape from the inner struggle.

Just, shut. up.

i really really really want to study with a friend, long-term ;/

i’m lazy to blog. i’ll b/c invisible.

2009-04-11T18:38:00.001+08:00

good friday was fun. even if you didn't help me relieve my tension by going out with your other friends. so, it WAS fun. my sister, mum and me went to marina square. and we watched Knowing. and today, corinne told me 4C guys watched Knowing yesterday too. okkay lolz. the show was suuuper nice, and it was a real eye opener about how fragile our planet is and how easy it is for us to die. well sad things aside, we went shopping after that. and bought my parents' aniversary present. it was damn cute!!! and we walked around and we went to ClubMarc. my mum spent like $70+ on 4 pieces of clothes. and she bought me this red, plasticky material jacket and it is damn chio. haa, damn happy. then we went to suntec for dinner and we went home. sooo fun :) oh wellz, it may be boring to you, but walking around with the people you love and knowing that they love you too is something you should treasure. everything else seem like nothing. and we were talking. it was a good chat. overall, it was a great day. surprisingly, i learnt alot on life lessons and well... ahem, my love life. all advice from my sister. and for that day, just one day, i forgot about everything, everyone else. and what bliss that was, that is all i can say. my sister can relieve my tension too. and i'm appreciate that fact. coz she'll always be there for me and give my the help i need when i need it. and that is the thing only family can give. friends can't.

Love, JOVYNE.

2009-04-03T18:49:00.001+08:00

okkay, under the advice of my dear dear sister, i've decided to come revive this dead blog. okkay. no one's really doing anything to keep this alive. i'll TRY to post more. but i don't see the point coz no one visits this blog anyway. ohwellz, unhappiness aside, nothing much really goes on around me now. i just continue with my usual boring routine, and that's about it i guess. well, i've been discussing with DoomBunny about, ahem, someone. and i've been thinking more about it now. what i should do etc. what should i do? bloody confused. i just wanna escape into another world. so nowadays you'll find me daydreaming alot now. of what i would want to do, of my future, of the happy memories poeple left behind for me, of what would happen if i said or did things differently, and lots of other things. and i realised i don't have any true friends at school. you've found your new bff, congrats. i guess that would happen sooner or later when we're in different classes. well so did you, good for you. and i don't really talk to you in class anymore. and sometimes, i just feel oh-so-irritated by you and your... emotions? i don't know if that's the right word to use. and i guess we only talk about things we like, if you get what i mean. when i talk to people online, i talk about other people's problems, never about me. i guess i've got too many secrets, and no one should know coz the consequences would be too dire. i know, coz you do that everyday. i know no one understands this post, coz i don't wanna spoil the delicate balance between us. you won't mind, i don't think i will either, but that means one more enemy. will it? and coz there are so many secrets, so, so many. i want someone to share it with, but that person may not have appeared yet, or maybe have not proven him/herself to me yet. or maybe i just don't trust anyone whose not family. i just so tired with life. i say that everyday: whoa, damn tired manz. and people think: lolz she don't sleep enough is her own problem, complain for what?? ohwellz, i guess if you read this, you'll understand now. i don't want to say anymore. there are more important things for me to do. over-reacting and clinging on to the past won't get you anywhere, i promise.

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-03-31T18:42:00.000+08:00

hello!! long time didn't post anything hahaa. damn tired. so many things happened. 1. FAHRENHEIT AUTOGRAPH SESSION!!!! OMG SO SHUAI! thay all look better in person seriously. just look at the pics!

[人山人海！！！fahrenheit is suuuuper popular :)]

[大东！！！！OMG HEARTS HEARTS!!!]

[beatboxing!!! DAMN PRO DAMN SHUAI!]

[sooooo cute!]

[he took a pic of the fans okay! and i raised my board suuuper high :)]

okkay i'll post CSS one another time ;) and my hong kong trip one right, aiya. see how. so happy. now have motivation to study!!! must work even harder, now that i've seen FAHRENHEIT. I CAN DO IT! i know i can. i must. KAMBATAE!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-03-28T13:00:00.001+08:00

i'm so tired. reached home late from tuesday onwards. taught maths, queued, cca + tuition, queued again. like, reached home at 5plus on tuesday. the rest is all earliest 9pm. soooo tired. but its worth it. i hope. hope that all of it will pay off. can't wait for tomorrow. OMG FAHRENHEIT!!! hahaa. yes shunyi, i'm crazy. and proud of it.

changed places on wednesday. sitting with ying en again :) 2nd last row, soooo happy. hahaa... the sitting arrangement this time quite safe. and boring. lolz, so sian.

i don't know. i really don't know. 我的心不见了，不懂它去了哪里。离家出走了吧。哈哈，等它找到真正的主人，才会回来。心里真的好乱。它真正属于谁呢？若是我就好了。不会那么的乱。forget it, i shall not emo. even though i feel so emo today. i was chatting with my sister this morning. we were all in bed and just talking. its like, i feel so relieved to talk to someone about my 心事。and she gives good advice. like, seriously. feel alot better than yesterday :) ohwellz, i shall end here. no time to even update, coz i've been sooooo busy. running around alot.

*BZY: okkay i know. hahaa, you should thank me enough okkay! i saved you that day ;D*

Love, JOVYNE xD

Psychoanalyst

2009-03-27T23:56:00.001+08:00

psy·cho·a·nal·y·sis (sk--nl-ss)

n. pl. psy·cho·a·nal·y·ses (-sz)

a method of treating mental and emotional disorders by discussion and analysis of the patient's thoughts and feelings

a. The method of psychological therapy originated by Sigmund Freud in which free association, dream interpretation, and analysis of resistance and transference are used to explore repressed or unconscious impulses, anxieties, and internal conflicts, in order to free psychic energy for mature love and work.

b. The theory of personality developed by Freud that focuses on repression and unconscious forces and includes the concepts of infantile sexuality, resistance, transference, and division of the psyche into the id, ego, and superego.

2. Psychotherapy incorporating this method and theory.

psycho·ana·lyst (-n-lst) n.

psycho·ana·lytic (-n-ltk), psycho·ana·lyti·cal (--kl) adj.

psycho·ana·lyti·cal·ly adv.

Hmm.. Interesting branch of psychology.

Thanks K for the great rendezvous today! Boyfriend-cum-Girlfriend-cum-Sister! Whoa

tENACIOUS~

2009-03-26T23:14:00.001+08:00

I'm online 'cuz I finally decided to give myself a break considering tomorrow will rightfully be Bel's off-day considering I won't be going to celebrate the not-worth-my-time Founder's Day. Sounds snobbish, but TOO BAD.

& My cursor's moving on its own on the laptop

& I received my CGH bill which amounts to S$514.22, with a govt grant of S$320.75 + Dad's Medisave, deducting S$193.47. Do the math. I pay nought! ;D

& CHAN KaiYing came to AHS today! Claiming she's Mr Chan's daughter (illegitimate, I say! xD) & it dawned on me that I miss her so! & I owe her a lunch date!

& After reading that awfully "artificially-english-~~profound~~ absurd" post I have learnt that it reflects badly on the reader 'cuz it seems that I'm trying to overestimate my English prowess which is definitely not the true case henceforth I should not be too supercilious.

& I wanted to mark my achievement, or rather the last few days of the Mar Hol that went without a hitch. Ha ha, and when I mean that, I mean everything went according to whatever I planned. Thought schooling might bring back more routine and normality to my life. But the results weren't as expected. I've been snacking every time I reach home. *Reprimands self*

& Mum has found a temp. job near Suntec! A thing to rejoice 'cuz that means less time for her to start experimenting her brilliant cooking skills on my stomach and tiring it out. So when it doesn't get tired there is less food to churn and thus it is more productive in digesting my food and doesn't contribute to fat gain x| GOSH!

& I feel like a free bird (gee pardon my bad metaphor) 'cuz i really feel like one; what with waking up as if it's a normal school day and going out to study with K (a big plus! I know I'm masochistic and I'm loving it!), then heading to Suntec (with her, once again) to accompany me buy my fbt sports top (FINALLYYYYY!) for my regular runs. PRETTY!

& Miss Zee taught me exercises to train abs! To be incorporated into my daily schedule (which means I haven't fully executed it yet x.X) She says I'll see the results in 2 months if I'm disciplined enough to do it every odd days!

& I'm proud to complete 3 novels in a span of 2 weeks and I'm currently on Marley and Me!

& FYI, I keep track of my lip recovery process by taking photos of it every other day (almost!).

& Here are the photos of the trip I made with Lin to Mediacorp to catch CSS during the Mon of Mar Hol:-

Multi-coloured sky! It's way better when viewed with naked eye.

A rainbow. Couldn't quite take the whole rainbow altogether ];

I'm falling in love with the sky, (and i must add,) literally. (in case some thick-faced person claims to be one. HAHAHA.)

2009-03-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

heyyazzz... i'm back from hongkong, obviously. couldn't post immediately on sat coz i had tuition. and spent to rest of the afternoon watching 霹雳 MIT :))) so damn happy :) 霹雳 MIT rocks my socks manz! hahaa, there's this guy in it, he's called 187 in the show, and he is like DAMN HOT OKKAY!!! hahaa, can't really describe him lahh. too hot to handle :) lolz. well, didn't do alot of interesting stuff in hongkong, just shopping everyday :) bought so damn alot of clothes. and on the second day we went shopping my mum said: okay no more shopping ahh... then in the end we went shopping everyday except for 1 day :) HAHA!!! so funny... took damn alot of zilian pics coz we bought new clothes and stuff hahaa. can imagine right Zzz... i won't post them up now, wait till i transfer all the pics from the cam then post everything up. too lazy now lahh hahaa. sianzz... still in the holiday mood sia. feel like i'm still in hongkong, and go shopping some more :) no mood to study lahh.... have to get my brain re-activated!!! the shopping there so totally rocks can?? its damn cheap depending on where you go hahaa.
top three things i love about hongkong:
1. THE SHOPPING!!! ahh, i can become broke there...
2. THE BOYS!!! OMG THIS IS A TOTAL PLUS POINT!!! the guys there are so damn shuai/ cute or whatever. singapore boys suddenly seem so... ahem. LOUSY.
3. THE SCHOOL UNIFORM!!! okkay not all are nice, some are quite horrible, but some are like so totally nice!!! damn manga. don't need tuck in. LOVEZZZZ....

i can seriously move to hongkong in the future. HONGKONG ROCKS MY SOCKZZZ!!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

cyst surgery

2009-03-18T12:52:00.001+08:00

Avant-garde equipments

Reminiscent of the time I plucked my teeth at the dentist during the braces process.

Kind nurses assuaged my fears

Dawdled my time waiting, waiting, waiting... (and thinking of how I'm going to write my compo out T.T)

All these while I was sated with a melange of emotions.

I'm suffering from a bout of flu/cough, was fearing if it would interfere with the operation process.

I thought this surgery would be too trifling a matter to announce to everyone, so I kept it to a few close friends.

There were times I was disoriented from the unfamiliarity of my surroundings.

The surgery went without a hitch!

Pardon me while I get my thoughts back into some semblance of order and describe every infinitesimal detail of whatever that happened just 3 hours ago.

I sussed that I didn't like being treated as a patient, although all the nurses treated me with utmost care.

Is it me, or does time seem to elapse so quickly in Operation Theatre 5 throughout the surgery? Maybe it was just a simple and straightforward process. It was the waiting time that carried my train of thought ricocheting my mind.

For as long as I can remember, this is one unprecedented event.

I'm extremely grateful to Dad and Mum for being there with me all the while, not leaving my sight, not even as I was being pushed into the room.

Was listening to the machine grunting with rapt attention, trying to figure out what they were doing since the local anesthesia(LA) was working so well on me that I couldn't feel a thing( thank goodness LAs exists!).

I fervently wish all the burning and laser and cutting of my skin tissues can annihilate the cyst completely and never appear again. I heard Doctor murmuring "skin tissues", "salivary glands", "it's a cyst".

When it was over the nurse (whose daughter is Jacqueline from 4J) who attended to me the whole operation process showed me what Doctor cut out. I don't think I can ever forget the shape of the cyst, the pinkish tissue, the red blood vessels within it, the faint white spots, the brown, seemingly burnt sides, rolling in the container. It's in a cylindrical shape (I marvel the doctor for being able to cut out such an even shape).

Do I dare say I have a high-enough threshold of pain? But right now the LA hasn't worn off. I'm afraid of the pain that comes after.

Do you know? The 3 stitches that is on my lip are black in colour. It is supposed to dissolve and be invisible in a couple of weeks time. I'm supposed to refrain from hot food as that area might bleed.

I must really thank the doctor (young and promising [x) and nurses that tended to me with care. I noticed that the nurses there came from all over the world (well, not really x]) from China to India and Philippines.

Bottom line is, I prefer older female nurses & I am not comfortable with being treated like a patient.

I initially thought it was going to be so small a process that the doctor would just pop into a room and cut it off and say bye. But everything just turned out different from what I expected. I met nurses who would ask for my name and ID whenever I was in a different department, asking me to change out of my clothes and into the gown/robe, wearing a band with my name and address on it, being asked to lie on the bed (the most palpable form of being treated like a patient), rolled into Operating Theatre 5, measured my blood pressure and heart rate on several accounts, being pushed in a wheelchair after I'm done with the surgery (to what do i owe this honour?), be treated to ice milo.

As I sit in front of the computer trying to recover the warmth being robbed by the hospital while Mum went to buy porridge for me, I recall the prevalent events that occured from 8.30 to 11.30 in the morning.

I foresee I wouldn't want to be a surgeon when I grow up...

All i want to do today is to cut myself a little slack, but another voice warns me the consequences of doing that.

"Nobody wants to admit this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe it's all a chain, and a long time ago someone did a bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on... But then again, bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like." Nineteen Minutes, Jodi Picoult

This girl wants to be a rock star tonight!

;Bel

Humpty Dumpty; C&A in the limelight

2009-03-17T20:53:00.001+08:00

There's a gazillion and one things i want to do when I turn on the computer, trust me. But I know only better than to submit to them, not with a gazillion and two other Things-to-Do flashing the SOS sign. Yes, if not for the sake of my distinguished C&A, I probably wouldn't be online posting their distinguished photos up. With all due respect I shall clear my caches and post up all the photos stored.

I recently discovered that Microsoft Word can post a blog post up (though I'm still on Windows Live Writer for the familiarity of it)! Technology... (& i can write a 100-word essay on how much I object to it.)

Thanks to not posting regularly, the English-insides of me are unsettled, for not being able to produce what I want to say in words. It's an uncomfortable feeling. Henceforth, every single word of this post is only rudimentary :|

Went for a visit to the Supreme Court on the first Sunday of the Mar Hol. I was the one that requested to go, mind you. I wonder why. Future prospects (?) And I can say it's fruitful. To cut the long story short, here goes:

Presenting...
Judge Isabel!

Judge Mum!

Presenting....
Criminal-Big Bad Wolf

Witness 1-The (3)Blind Mouse {Hilarious}

Witness2- ~~Little~~ Old Red Riding Hood

Victim- Humpty Dumpty, Mr Sunny Syed Up

Shucks I swear I took an effort to remember the name of this bridge. 'cuz it was in the Siow Miao Yeow Challenge Quiz!

I like the view of the Singapore River!

Simply put, it was a enriching journey with Mum, coupled with catching up with each other! I've learnt a great deal of what I hadn't known about this area of expertise and I can firmly say I am familiar with the court terms now! Was first exposed to them by Jodi Picoult's novels.

Yes, and this is for "if not for the distinguished C&A, I wouldn't be here."

I officially declare A as a professional paparazzi who don't stop taking sneak-shots of people! Yes, stare at the one laughing at the background.

Badminton with C originally planned, but A tagged along. And it was here that I discovered she's got the dancing gene in her 'cuz apparently she dances to badminton *Cheers!*

Can i refine my official words to: I officially declare both C&A as professional paparazzi!

This is to get back at them! Still, this is peanuts compared to their handiwork. I can't believe senior Bel is so awfully nice :P

I don't know how we got to agreeing to post these unglam photos of each other on our blogs. Grrr..

These are the proper ones!

Well, not so..

This isn't very hilarious to laugh at.

2009-03-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY?' YOU SAY:
The Reason - Hoobastank (ehh lol. NO I WON'T tell u the reason if i'm not okay :D)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
一路向北 - 周杰伦 (huh? i like to go north? yeah i like to travel up north to europe :D)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
不需理由 - 陈世维 (YES! I DON'T NEED A REASON TO LIKE YOU :D)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
动脉 - 飞轮海 (my arteries? hahahahahahaaaa)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Wait For You - Elliot Yamin (the song says it all. waiting for you...)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
She's the One - Robbie Williams (no it should be He's the One. i'm a girl! )

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
豆浆油条 - 林俊杰 (no i'm not you tiao or tao huay....)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Over the Rainbow - Angela Zhang (ehh lol. its quite nonsensical now... over the moon actually. with my results :DDD)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
最佳听众 - 飞轮海 (hahaa yeah. finding someone who can really listen to me and understand)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
借口 - SHE (lolz. an excuse not to answer hahahaa)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
天使 - 五月天 (hahaa yes my best friend is my angel :DDD)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
我知道我便漂亮了 - 石欣卉 (OMG my life story is that i know i became prettier. HAHAHA)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
你曾经让我心动 - achord (lolz. it is nonsensical)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
小薇 - 黄品源 (no i don't WTH)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
No Promises - Shayne Ward (lolz. NO i will promise that i'll be there for you forever. HELLO, MARRIAGE lehh!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
木乃伊 - 林俊杰 (wow? yep i'll become a mummy after i die hahaa. quite true :P)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys (lolz. i am inconsolable once i'm sad. but my hobby is NOT to be inconsolable lolz)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
对不起 - 棒棒堂王子 (afraid of saying sorry... hahaa. i am actually...)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
听见 - 恶作剧之吻插曲 (i don't want my secret to be heard. i'll die if people know my secret...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
一千年以后 - 林俊杰 (i want to go one thousand years into the future. and see what happens to mankind. not that accurate but still yes i want to do that. not now though)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
外婆 - 周杰伦 (ehh lolz. my friends are NOT my grandma okkay. my grandma is my grandma. my friends are my friends. they don't nag at me like my grandma does hahahaa)

TAG: ehhh...
JINGYING SHUNYI LEON TIMOTHY and anyone else who wants to do hahaa. some are quite true actually. other are just stupid. TWO EXTREME ENDS. LIKE ME.

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-03-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

heyy. i'm going hongkong tomorrow :) hahaa, really looking forward to it. can't wait to sit the airplane and just not stay in singapore. the thought of standing on the same land as you kinda disgusts me. sianz i don't wanna talk about him, forget it. just look forward. not backwards hahaa lolz! suddenly thought of kiameng. it was quite sad that i couldn't go see him with the class yesterday. had to go for tuition, my parents don't even let me pon ): 很想过去支持他。加油哦！你应能撑过去，而变得更坚强。一定要加油，身边会有朋友陪知你的。虽然我跟你不是走得很近，但还是要做两年的同学。感情也会比以前好吧？总觉得这件事能够让我们更团聚，让我们更了解生命有多么的脆弱，而更珍惜我们之间的关系。我们能有这个缘分做两年的同学，就要好好珍惜。但就是有些人不懂这个道理。一定要浪费时间和力气去恨一个人。对你有什么好处呢？算了，不想浪费我自己的时间和力气在这种人身上。哈哈，突然发现我好矛盾。一方面说不想见到你们，也了解生命毫无意义，但又说这些。我动了心吗？好乱好乱。。。真想放弃这一切，死了算了。生与死，毫无差别。但我真的想了很久，最终还是没有勇气。虽然对世上的一切厌倦了，累了，但还是没有勇气。害怕死后的世界。至少在这里我知道我未来的一点点形状。很模糊，但至少有个形状。死了要面对全新的世界。那种自己一个人，自己面对的感觉对我虽然不陌生，但还是有一种恐惧。平凡人不会懂得。。。哈哈，如果这是作文的话我早就离题了！嘉民，一定要加油哦！为你身边的人加油，也为自己努力。我们会在这里的，永远永远。。。

朋友一生一起走

那些日子不再有

一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过

一声朋友你会懂

还有伤还有痛还要走还有我

朋友©周华健

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-03-11T19:12:00.000+08:00

Zzz... today's wednesday. and i'm doing a countdown to march holidays :) hahaa, just can't wait till i don't see any AHS people anymore :))) seriously! not that i don't like the people around me, but i just feel like i don't want to see any of you. that feeling is like, so undescribable. i feel so... 厌倦 of you guys. no offence lahh, but that kinda includes all my friends and classmates??? hahaa. its like, i see you people everyday, till i'm sick and tired of it. it gets so boring and tiring to put on that mask for you guys to see. people notice that i'm nochalant about stuff. i don't want to care at all. i really don't. but you think i have a choice? LIKE NO I DON'T. i have to care about these minor shit when i don't want to at all. i just want to concentrate on my studies and shut everything else out. i'm beginning to see the pattern here. i can tell, i've grown. and changed. you guys see me everyday you just don't notice it. my thinking has changed. i just focus on the things i want and need. and fulfilling my dreams. just focusing on the things that are important to me. i just want to shut every other shit out. i've matured. i don't talk alot. and i'm used to sitting alone. thanks jamus, seriously. i like it. i don't have to care about other people's feelings when they sit next to me. like what will happen when i ignore them. i like sitting alone. even better when i'm sitting at the back. i just need to care about the feelings of the people infront and beside me. all the more better when i'm sitting in the back corner. i really hope charmaine can put me in one corner. like when i was sitting next to corinne. i was so damn happy then.... i want single row. i don't bloody care about the other people who need to sit with their friends and share all the secrets and bloody shit. not referring to anyone in particular. don't slam me for this. 真的好像让一切成为事实，不要再让它继续当梦想。这包括在学校所发生的。不想管，不要管，不会管。。。

JOVYNE.

2009-03-07T17:52:00.001+08:00

had a great time last night. hahaa, waited till timo and leon and shih han finished cca then we went to whitesands. went to eat SAKAE SUSHIII!!!! damn fun :)))) suuuper enjoyed myself :) even though we waited for like, 30min or so? but still it was damn fun. cam-whored for a while after eating. and we played zhong ji mi ma :) damn fun :)))) timo only kena-ed when i set the number HAHAA. overall, we suuuper enjoyed ourselves. showed the world my crazy wacky side. really. yesterday really left me alot of memories i will never forget. because its our last year in ahs, and because we rarely go out together. love you guys i'll name all of you, thank me :))) TIMOTHY (birthday boy!!!) LEON SHUNYI JINGYING SHIH HAN - you people rock my 4C life manz. not forgetting QIJING, who didn't want to come :( but anyway, we had a great time EVEN WITHOUT HER HAHAA. ohwellz, go to jingying's blog for pics tata!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-03-06T15:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY LIM!!!! hahaa, one year older, be more mature and listen up when people call you okkay... so unfair. u can watch nc16 shows already... *jealous jealous jealous!!!* hahaa, but its okkay, i sneaked in before ;D lolz!! so fun today. i bought cake yesterday (i almost forgot and had to borrow money from my tuition teacher hahaa!) and we celebrated his birthday during recess. seriously, 45 minute recess rocks manz! well, we sang him a birthday song, cut the cake, ate it and hahahahahahaa, the best part was at the back. it was actually qijing who broke the ice and started the chain reaction. i was nudging her to take the cream and put it on timo's face, so she just scooped up cream from the top of the cake and went up to timo and smeared it on his cheek. poker-faced. seriously! she totally did it expressionless lahh! damn funny. damn funny. then we got a bit on his hair and he went to the toilet to wash. suuuper funny. the rest of us was like 捧腹大笑. when he came back we wanted to do it again but end up change target to leon. this part is fun =DDD timo chased him like everwhere and end up he route back to where we were. and me and timo caught him. with ming guan's help and qijing expert smearing of cream, we got a whole lot of it on his cheek :))) *smile smile smile* hahaa, damn happy. going out for dinner with them later. no choice, they all have cca. i am soooo happy to be in english drama :DDD ohhwells, 16th birthday, you gotta spend it memorably :) like timo. he's lucky his uniform never kena any cream HAHAA! soooo... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY!!! you waiting right? okkay then, wish granted :)

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-03-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

you know, its the little things in life that makes it so wonderful. the tiny things that you take for granted everyday, yeah, those things simply make your day when you finally realise how important they are to you. like the simple 5-10 minute walk to school, i never realised how quiet and serene the neighbourhood was, and seeing the few people go about their daily life is simply just... heart-warming. they can go about their daily life, and do it so well at that, why can't i? why in the world must i worry about things i seriously cannot control, like feelings? not just others, but my own included. yeah right, bullshit, you cant control your feelings. what an idiot, people say.. its that complicated when it comes to alot of things. its you, those childish, immature people who are spoilt brats that don't realise that the world is in fact bigger than that tiny one you live in. you get everything you want, i don't deny this fact either, but have you really paused to think that the world isn't just about you, your friends, your life and your whatever shit? i noticed this one day sometime ago, okkay a few months ago, that life just isn't as MEANINGFUL you make it out to be. people just live and die, what's the point? you get reborn and live and die again. this may be the god-knows-how-many lives i've lived. or this could be the first. GOD KNOWS MANZ. you may not agree with me and believe in god and heaven and eternal life up there with god, that's your belief, what can i do about it? but hey, give it some thought. one of you heard me talk about this before, and yes you respect my beliefs. and so you also know that i don't see how valuable life is. i can just die the next day and people cry and mourn, for i don't know, max 1 month (other than those people who REALLY care, not those who just there in the background) and forget about me. see my point? if not forget it. CHILDISH, IMMATURE PEOPLE WILL. NOT. GET. IT. just close this window/tab or whatever and msn your friends. i seriously feel like using words i'm not supposed to but i can't bear to pollute the blog i care so much about.

JOVYNE.

ACCOMPLISHED BEL

2009-03-02T19:00:00.001+08:00

BEL feels accomplished these past few days for the sole reason that BEL WAS BEL!
So BEL wants to celebrate her ACCOMPLISHMENT by stating here to commemorate that BEL wasn't bad as BEL thought BEL to be!

I was I when I broke the year long record by communicating( with every infinitesimal inch of the meaning of the word) and talking to people on Friday.

With A during recess for the whole 45 minute period and was opened to things I never once realised was there all the while.

With K after school over dinner @ NIwa Sushi( reminisces the times at TAPEC) to try to help her out in her dilemma. Discovered we both have similar lofty dreams.
With J over a past one hour phone chat( now I agree with Mr Tan that girls our age love to talk over the phone for countless of hours and never grow weary). Basically caught up with her from not talking for 13 days straight.

I was I when I broke my routine and went on a cool swim with H!

I was I when I ran for 30minutes and did not gain the fatigue from looking at running now from a different view.

I's spirits were lifted when it rained for 2 consecutive nights!

Before:
During:
After:
Sunset:

I still thinks of whatever she experienced at Shang Hai and W 2 years ago when 蒲公英的约定 travels into my eardrums.

2009-03-02T15:55:00.000+08:00

i feel so damn... urgh. can't describe. its so... garh!!!! so damn shitty lahh. i don't know why, but... Zzz... i felt so damn lathargic today... wanted to sleep during chem, but that would make me and jamus sleeping AGAIN. lolz quite funny. 1st time was during amaths. i was sleeping and sy told me after lesson ended that jamus was also sleeping. mr chan even said put us as partners sit together really good, v cooperative. want to sleep also sleep together. i'm like, ??? wth luhh. 心里的石头好像变重了。可能是因为今天没见到你吧。今天等不及放学能见到你，但最后希望全都落空了。可能是因为这个原因吧。所以心中的石头又被泪水加重，一直沉下去。好希望我的心也能沉下去，就不再需要面对现实，面对这些让我见了就想逃避的一切。包括你，你和你。尤其是你，一看到你我就心痛。好像告诉你这一切，但若最后的星星都不闪了，我该怎么办呢？？？我朝喜欢现在的我们，但好像进一步走下去。。。但不知道你愿不愿意。信真的很乱，很痛，很重。。。

闭上眼放开双手 -- 请在我后悔之前离开我©飞轮海

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-02-28T12:45:00.001+08:00

heyy... like super long time never come online and post. i was talking to I on the phone yesterday for over an hour, mabe 2 i don't know. and i realised we haven't really studied together for a while. its been a loooooong time since we chatted on the phone like that. and for so long! the previous times were like half and hour, around there. and i realised, i can't do that with anyone else. none of my classmates, specifically. well, other than Q maybe, haven't really chatted with her yet. but mostly its with I. and its seriously alot of fun. i miss it. all the times we spent together doing crazy things and mugging for exams. well, i don't have a choice but to wait till olevels are over. then i can really enjoy myself... that's all i'm looking forward to, other than my dreams i'm gonna fulfil... i have to. its my motivation to study!!!! i just hope and pray with all my heart that my dreams will come true. they have to. they really have to... i really like talking to you jerome!!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

沉默

2009-02-23T19:41:00.001+08:00

最近，沉默了。沉默了许多。又回到过去的我，没有自信的我。真是令人讨厌。

电话也不再比往常吵，烦人了。真是不习惯如此的安静。开始珍惜你每天不以为然的简讯了。开始体会到不理简讯的心情了···想过要找你，不过也不敢。毕竟新的学期，忙碌的你。还是不打扰你好，免得没有话题谈。

最近想到你时我又感到我对你而言渐渐毫无价值了。蠢吧？以前还以为我们的友谊是非一般的。现在还是吗？将来还会吗？还记得我们在心中对彼此许下的诺言吗？说过将来不再有机会见面时友情仍然像现在的浓厚。在过去不久，你会因期待每一天的到来而忘了曾经的我们吗？曾经的我们话题多得说也说不完，现在和你在一起时需要绞尽脑汁找一些无聊，没意义的话题。

渐渐感到自己变得无趣了，朋友也渐渐疏远了。嗨～

我不喜欢想太多！烦死了！

★｀嘉容，加把劲儿！～

Abel+Bel!

2009-02-22T15:19:00.000+08:00

hello. its the 22nd of february today. YAY. hahaa, someone's BIRTHDAY TODAY. WAHAHAHA! special someone... hahaa, i was having tuition today then i suddenly realised it was his birthday HAHAA! damn funny. lolz. his birthday falls on a nice day: 22/2 lol! so funny. used to like him ALOT ALOT ALOT. lolz still like him now. he's.... shuai. Oo... still remember those times where i was crazy over him. used to think about him every night and day. and back then, i was still small and just gave it my all. HAHAA, those times are really... FUN. really miss those times where i dared to go all out. not like now. where its all so stressed. i like the stress but... Zzz. cant do much without people saying things. people like... don't wanna mention names haizzz.... never mind. just hope they stop it Zzz. this guy... i hope i can see him again!!! :) LOVE YA DAREN TAN!!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-02-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

HEYY I'M BACK. i went out last night. to celebrate Valentine's Day. with very special people. and i totally enjoyed myself. its was soooo fun :) yes, too bad the neoprint machine failed us, you got that right, I. hahaa, but its okkay, we cam-whored in there for i don't know, 15 mins while waiting for the person to fix it?? suuuuper fun. know what, we should go out like that more often. at night, and go home at 11pm. catch a night movie, go play basketball, camwhore even more, and just have fun. hahaa, but its only limited to after olevels, that i gotta admit. Zzz, it'll be a long time before i enjoy myself like that again. unless i can find time to go out again with you guys!!! Love ya'all manx! pix coming up!!! (AS PROMISED) ohh ya, we went to play basketball at the arcade. and i think i rock manx!!! not forgetting QIJING who is as talented as me :)

our wonderful basketball score(STAGE 4 okkay!) ^^

[notice an arm near the bottom right left corner. that's QIJING - she got pushed down by ANNALOY!!! poor qijing...]

^^[QIJING UNGLAM!!!!]^^

(JEROME YOU ARE SOOOO NICE... CUTE LITTLE JUNIOR!!! i might like you too!)

Love, JOVYNE xD

Fulfilled '09 V'day!

2009-02-15T01:49:00.001+08:00

BEL'S V'DAY WAS SPENT FULFILLED.
& I SINCERELY THANK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU WHO MADE MY DAY FABULOUSLY FANTASTIC AND LOVED!

(Dang I'm feeling so sentimental tonight. :|)

I'm a hostage, to my own humanity.

Namely:

Hui Min
Koek Ching
Jovyne
Anna
Qi Jing
Ou Wen
JL
NicholasL
JZ

All i've been trying to do is save my skin.

H, for the shared lunch and shared engaging chat!
You know what, I found where my ring went to. Gosh =x It went missing the whole time until I reached home and found out where it had hidden itself.

K, for the accompanied walk around the mall, visiting O and your sensational stories about yourself. For opening yourself up to me. I really appreciate it! I'll keep them safe no worries!
I am still in the envy-you state I tell you! Don't forget to lend me Nineteen Minutes!

J, A, Q for the fanatic company that cannot be compared to anyone else's. For being willing to take crazy unglamorous shots and laughing so hard my stomach hurt.
Guys, let's carry on this loved tradition! A pity the neoprint machine failed us!

(Photos will be up by J!)

O, for everything you've done.
I mostly told you online how thankful I am of you and how much you are worth already and even made you cry. Oh man, now you're making me feel important more than ever, for having a bestie like you!

'Cuz I've been housing all this doubt, the insecurity.

JL, for the wish, and for being such a sport at arguing with me!
But then again, I have to thank O all over again..

N, for reminding me of my forgotten past!

JZ, for clearing the air and releasing your breath and letting me be aware and clearer of the situation.
Yes, hello, new friend!

I've been locked inside that house, while you hold the key.

I'm feeling so much more self-worth, self-assurance, self-important than ever thanks to all you people out there who made me grow a notch wiser and more accomplished.

To add to the accomplishment I ~~reprimanded thrashed scolded snubbed at~~ S last night real badly. I didn't know what made me that impulsive and sudden. I'd never got so worked up to any friend before, what more a person I wasn't close to. Up to date I wouldn't say I'm sorry for that though I figured out you might be really shaken about it.

Now I've been dying to get out.

2009-02-13T15:32:00.000+08:00

okkay... Zzz. school is... FINE. okkay la, not that bad. it can get suuuuper boring at times. but TEACHER CHANGED PLACES!!! OMG, I'M SOOOO HAPPY! its like, the teacher FINALLY changed our places, and i'm happy no matter where i'm sitting. even if its next to guan xiang or xi ying again. as long as i'm not stuck in that same old spot :) YAY. i'm sitting with corinne now. AAALLL the way at the back in one corner. YAY. away from the "prime position" as corinne calls it. haa, i'm indifferent to it coz i don't really care where i'm seated. as long as i change =D but i like it there. its quiet, its peaceful, its away from disturbances like noisy people. coz i cant be surroundedwhen i'm all the way in a corner duh. SO I'M HAPPY :))) SUUUPER HAPPY!!! lol. haizzzz. so sian.
DREAMS, NEVER A REALITY. BELIEVE, AND IT'LL COME TRUE. I WISH. BELIEVE!!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-02-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

OMG. i feel like i'm going mad!!! Zzz... it'll all come true, if i work hard, if i pray that it will, if i believe that it will. it will it will it will.... just the thought of my childhood dreams coming true is like so... OMG!!! UNBELIEVABLE!!! i keep getting greedier and greedier. i used to be happy to just see them, but now... a handshake may be enough, but i so wanna spend time with them. i am seriously so greedy. but its my dream!! can i compromise on them?? i want to then i won't feel soooo disappointed when it doesn't come true. 期望越大，失败时，跌得越重。but i'll keep believing, coz only that can get me through all this. i just hope and hope and hope with all my heart that it will come true coz i really really really need it.

Love, JOVYNE xD

4l09 new year gathering

2009-02-07T19:51:00.001+08:00

My new desktop background!

Comments appreciated!

P.S. I love you guys! Thanks for coming up and being such wonderful, boisterous guests! (Of course, Q, you admitted I was a good host too!)

4L'09 CNY house gathering

2009-02-06T18:05:00.001+08:00

4L'08 CNY house visting!

Attention Hui Min, Qian Ru, Jing Yang and Zoey!

I have uploaded the pictures we took on that day!

Also shown are some photos of Wen Rui, Jie Hui, Rachel, Jovyne and Hui Min on AHS CNY Celebration!

2009-02-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

boring boring boring. that's seriously all i can say about school. how INTERESTING can school get, really. GOD KNOWS MAN. its really damn boring coz we don't do much. lessons are like so... urgh. i'm not showing off or anything but i kinda did most of it in tuition. like, the school is so damn slow! maybe tuition's fast. haa... got this NEQuiz tomorrow. mrs chew had to choose me xiying and peiyun of ALL people. WHY ME?????? wth la. its so boring, and i gotta stay back after school. damn it la. i wanna go home! haha, i screwed up my clit test, but i passed so never mind. chem was good. 39.5/40. [HALF MARK.] hcl was okay. 34.5/50, 38/50. [HALF MARK.] physics was good. 18/20. [CARELESS MISTAKE.] amaths was good. 21/25. [CARELESS MISTAKE.] history today seemed okay, but things don't always are what they seem. i kinda screwed it up a little here and there so i'm kinda hoping i get a good grade. haizzzz.... i just hope this can at least maitain throughout the year...

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-01-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

heyy i'm back again. haha, its kinda stupid to post on 2 consecutive days, but heck care. anyways, i had SEC1 WELCOME PARTY just now!!!! yes, its damn cool. its really suuuuper fun manx. there were 6 stations and 5 were dirty i.e. involving the use of weeds, leaves, muck (from field), chin chow, eggs, milk, flour, tofu, soap, butter, vinegar, soy sauce, oatmeal, tomatoes etc. its quite disgusting really, but its kinda... thrilling?? i shan't elaborate on the details lest you PUKE out whatever you have just ate :) i realised that this year's orientation was much more well-planned compared to last year, much more fun, much more disgusting and dirty, and also much more bonding. WE SERIOUSLY BONDED ALOT. i was actually touched when we surprise-splashed water on people. during the whole welcome party process, we really went all out and put in our best for our group, and we all got dirty and helped clean each other. even though we sabo-ed people who were still dry, it was really a once-in-a-lifetime experience. it really made me realise how bad i was as a VP coz the whole CCA wasn't really bonded during my time as ex-co. really. i feel quite 失败.
i really gotta say the sec3'09 did a wonderful job for this. i don't really know how much effort they put in, but it was a huge success. i think everyone loved it, and enjoyed it alot. really, this sec3 batch planned the best welcome party (to me, i don't know about the others). i don't know how to thank them or compliment them or anything, but seriously they deserve it. even when leona thought she lost her handphone, they really handled it well, especially queenie. i want you guys as my classmates, really, even if it means doing sec1/2/3 all over again. i'll try name all of you sec3s, so pardon me if i missed out any names okay. SUPER THANKS TO PINGSHUANG EDNA JAX REBECCA YUQUAN HANYU SARAH DEBRA FAITH QUEENIE MEIYING KEITH KENNETH JEREMIE. i hope i didn't miss anyone out. drama, you rock. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! (mingwei included)

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-01-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

okkay.. i'm back! CNY was fun this year. angbao money didn't go down, kinda remained the same... which is good, of course. so... i'm happy! and wardrobe this year was good. and we gambled. and i won some money. which i didn't keep, of course, coz i had a sponsor =D sooo.... overall quite fun la. haha, also 自恋-ed alot. only on the second day, coz i totally forgot to take pictures lol. shall post some up here. don't laugh at me okay...

yupp.. that's not it, but just these few. i'll post more if i have time la. byezzz!

Love, JOVYNE xD

新年快乐！

2009-01-25T02:06:00.001+08:00

'That was the biggest gift of telling my secret- I discovered I wasn't alone and I was normal.'
;Marshmallows for Breakfast, Dorothy Komsoon

o·to·lar·yn·gol·o·gy (t-lrng-gl-j)

The branch of medicine that deals with diagnosis and treatment of diseases of the ear, nose, and throat

der·ma·tol·o·gy (dûrm-tl-j)

The branch of medicine that is concerned with the physiology and pathology of the skin

I've been referred to these clinics in and out at CGH due to some abnormality of my skin and gum. Dang it. Do you want to see? It's gross to a little extent.

It may be hidden but aren't they horrid to the sight? Hope they don't catch your eye [+ YUCK.

Ever since the return to school and meeting up with friends for the inaugural time this year, many have commented that I looked different.

T was the one that made me first aware of my face shape. When prompted he said my face became rounder.
I unsurprisingly said I grew fatter (again).
When I met J I asked if I looked different and she said yes.
D said I look different.

Maybe it was due to the absence of my braces.

From (Awkward shot. =\)

To
(But I still love myself!)

Bottomline: I think I did change after some intense looking-at-myself-in-the-mirror sessions. HA. HA. HA.

Oh you know what, I read an article on Mind Your Body about a disorder called DBB. It's symptoms include:

excessive looking at the mirror
concentrating only on your flaws

I can't remember the rest. Based on my super strong memory they say it can occur in adolescents and adults too and no cosmetic surgery is satiable to them. Watch out watch out!
Disclaimer: There's a difference between the teen kind of self-consciousness and DBB!

+ I have a piece of beneficial news for everyone who doesn't read MYB that quality sleep (meaning not being disrupted in the middle of the night) is much more vital than quantity sleep though researchers say that 8 hours of sleep is the minimal where blahblahblah...
Bottomline: 8 hours of sleep is the best! Now scurry off to cuddle & hug your pillows and bolsters and slip into slumber land!

Did you know. I used to grind my teeth when I'm asleep when I'm young. Hur hur. Don't you?

The whole family engaged in pre-CNY preparation fun family bonding by making pineapple tarts. Add to the list Mum did to perfect her skills "Kueh Bangkit", Banana oatmeal cake, Hershey's Dark Chocolate cookies, "keropok"

BEFORE:

I did the “学业进步”. Aren't they pretty? Plus all the weird-looking shapes like the sun, carrot and asterisk-looking one though they didn't look quite as appealing =x haha! Applaud me for my creativity!

AFTER:

The words carved on the one above are 牛·福·圆年·春. Can you make them out?

I did this 纪! Mum's surname!

Lin's 梁嘉洳.

Banana outmeal cake!

Chocolate cookies. Imagine the strong aroma when you open the lid [+

The raw crackers not yet soaked and fried with oil!

I'll end of with 新年快乐·恭喜发财·年年有余!

I don't know what else already. That's why I keep my mouth shout every time they shout the four word auspicious words during the "lao yu sheng" time =x

Looking forward to playing cards and mahjong and angpaos!

P.S. I'm extending my generous invitation to all the people I know to come to my house to 拜年！

P.P.S. Those at Malaysia visiting, D, YC, RY etc come back quick and accompany me!

2009-01-24T12:20:00.001+08:00

haha, i'm like the only one updating lol. coz i'm bored???? i'm really starting to miss RSS. those times were really carefree. we didn't have to worry about stuff like demerit points and how we look like infront of our friends. coz we were still innocent, and young, and didn't understand the society enough to hide our flaws. i really envy the sec1s, not only bacause the stress level is near-zero, but also because they don't understand the society enough yet. i'd rather not know anything than know everything. sounds cool. copyright by me okay!!!

Love, JOVYNE xD

So this is.. CNY

2009-01-24T02:06:00.001+08:00

After being MIA for a pretty long time and with J doubting my presence, I have finally found the time to have the mood to blog again!

Spurred on by Dance, the latest thoughts, plus a thousand other thoughts ricocheting my mind. So much of them going through that I am unable to grab 'em all. So I'll just start with the most recent, phenomenal ones that would add to my memory collections!

Dance
The arrival of Sec.1s! Was looking forward to how they looked like. o.0 8/12 recruited turned up.
Audrey came today too, which served as a surprise 'cuz i wasn't expecting her. Turned out she looked for her other friends and I didn't receive her attention as much as I expected.. [RANTS AT A.] xD
We did 1 hour worth of warm up, which includes 10 minutes of running under the scorching sun( that as usual, won my disapproval) and stretching enjoyment( note my sarcasm xD). Followed by 1 hour of techniques and another of dance. Techniques, as usual as always usually, is not my forte. Gee. But I did use the time productively. HEEEHEEE. Frankly, it's the funkiest time I had minus the technique-formal business. [Winks at O.]

Here's my production: I know the 5/8 juniors' names! Namely, Huang Xin-my future-to-be chang cheng buddy, Abellona-the unique name, Judy-the shy one, Yvonne-tall dude (166), Jing Nin-inhumanely flexible and tiny.

Here comes the best part. With my partner-in-collaboration, Ou Wen. (Man, I think this NOOB jackass must be feeling high and mighty now. :) This like-minded, fanatic 2-year my 1-year older junior (Note to readers: Sophisticated?) and I went on a mission to be friendly, affable and leave a good impression on the Sec 1 juniors! Guess what? It was a success! Considering how we made a fool out of herself, myself and me in front of them. HA. HA. No kidding, we went bonkers.

Conclusion: O is an irritating buzzer.

You know, since I entered Dance, I noticed an invisible barrier between levels i.e. generation gap aka. level gap amongst us. Ever since I thought about me playing the role of a senior, I gave myself a mental note to treat everyone, big or small equally. Yes, that's how much I abhorred the level gap. It stops you from communicating with your Sec 4 seniors when you're Sec. 1 due to superior fear. I never wanted that to happen to the juniors who'd take on this role. I wouldn't, and from my performance up 'til now, I haven't let down myself!

4L
.. is pretty much smooth flowing, with some invisible glitches I can choose to ignore.
*Sorry for letting you down C, but I shall continue this the next time I come, along with CNY foreword. I warned you!

Pre-CNY foreword
*+photos comin' up!

+ spring cleaning of our blog i.e. update on my profile and links
+ spring cleaning of my pictures
+spring cleaning of my song collection
+uploading the Labels Or Love video for K T.T
+run online errands
+++

2009-01-23T19:03:00.000+08:00

heyyzzz... went back RSS today. haha, had ALOT of fun. i went back with my sis, and we went to look for our nephew there... hehehe, he's sooo shuai!!! OMG, and my sis says he looks like JIRO! i'm like... ~.~''' i don't know! haha, then her friends all came and met us in the hall. there was BRANDON, YU CHUAN, LEROY, SEAN, ELISABETH... Oo, and felicia and wendy.. but we mostly hang out with the CAPSLOCK-ED (lol!) peeps. haha, had lots of fun, even though they're only sec1s. they don't look very sec1-ish, but their attitude and 言行举止 are so totally sec1. they are like, so playful, and so childish, and rather immature. okay, fine, maybe coz i'm sec4, so 老了，有代沟... LOL! but still, its fun hanging out with them... it kinda makes me forget all my troubles for that few hours, and just enjoy myself and immerse myself in their company. they're still so young, and innocent, and can just be themselves. i feel so... at ease with them. i can be myself around them, and its so... relaxing. 终于可以放下心中的大石头了，但最后，那大石头还得再背起来。。。i kinda wish they're my classmates. sighzzzz... not saying that my present classmates are horrible or anything, its just that... garh, never mind. after olevels, we shall go out together!!! =DDD

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-01-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm back. i've got am and hcl test on thursday, but i'm like, losing touch with further trigo. i can't seeem to do most of the tb questions!!! OMG, i think i'm like dead. maybe i shall do hcl first. yeah maybe. today was okayokay... suuuuper boring manz. school is like, so routine, so boring. nothing interesting or amusing to keep me alive in school. i feel like this robot that listens to teacher in class and do what the teacher told you to. i just fee like slacking, but i know i can't. i really can't. i need to do well for olevels. to prove you wrong. that whatever crap you are doing now won't affect me. that's your ultimate prupose i know, coz i'm smarter than you. i just wanna do well. not for you, but for me. its just step one to fulfill my dreams.

天空突然灰了压向肩头
你给的出路我还不想走
躺下看乌云难捉摸的形状
好像有话要说却沉默我们会不会那样

oh baby 倔强到最后
变成阵风各奔西东

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪很想坠落
可惜地上挤满笑容哪里有空

天空像累了沉睡在心中
谁再仰望都无动于衷
每一朵乌云原来是什么颜色
为了谁而不同我们可不可以
oh baby 不要倔强不放手学会宽容

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪怎么坠落
有谁会懂 oh 谁会让它停留
oh my baby

来一场暴雨把我卷走有没有用

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
却不敢放肆挥霍这点痛
雨是眼泪很怕天空
一无所有

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我知道天空只剩这点痛
雨是眼泪偷偷坠落
伞下的你刚好经过

雨是眼泪 - 飞轮海

no special reason. its just a damn nice song. 心里，只剩下孤单的痛与寂寞的眼泪。。。

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-01-15T18:34:00.001+08:00

i don't understand. i really don't. why are you like, so IRRITATING??? why can't you just speak when you are supposed to??? why MUST you speak when it isn't neccessary for you to? 你不说话，没有人把你当哑巴. it is such a simple theory, why can't you understand that? i seriously do NOT believe that you are so stupid that you do not understand that or have NEVER heard of it before. (unless you really are, then i have nothing to say) you know that what you say can piss people off? and that you can hurt people's feelings?? you not having emotions DOES NOT MEAN THAT PEOPLE ARE EMOTION-LESS LIKE YOU. you are just so... argh! you know what? i can't even find a suitable word to describe you. and you know what? i am not going to waste my time over people like you. PEOPLE LIKE YOU DO NOT DESERVE MY TIME. (or anyone's time, for the record) and know what? i don't bloody hell care about you and your friends (猪朋狗友 - correct me if i'm wrong - ) coz you are not worth my time. i have my goals and targets, and it is not worth not acheiving them ALL. BECAUSE. OF. YOU. (piss me off again and you'll get it)

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-01-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

I WENT TO TJC OPEN HOUSE!!! its cool you know. haha, its like 1 class 25 people max. and they're reaally bonded. and you get to join 2 CCAs!! i wanna join DRAMA!! and the other one... i dn't know. haha, i don't know if i'll even get in!! TJ 1st choice, obviously. 2nd will be MJ. no VJ. heard some stuff about VJ. haizz. must JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!! work hard!!!

“我要开始奔跑碰到障碍就跳我要一路冲到目标直到最后一秒！！！”

我已经长大©棒棒堂

Love, JOVYNE xD

2009-01-12T17:26:00.000+08:00

这里的景色叫做曾经爱过
曾存在你的拥抱和温柔
撕开票根独自重游票
价是想念你的痛

你说做朋友并不是朋友
我们比路人还陌生的多
感情的废墟重建以后
谁会偶尔回来走走

我站在回忆的入口
手握紧左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中你从没走

我说的爱你说的太自由
自由到仿佛我只是说说
未来的风景我没爱过
我只想念你的所有

我站在回忆的入口
手握紧左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中你从没走

爱你想你都以极速向回忆暴冲
他们能看见的是虚伪的从容

我站在回忆的入口
手握紧左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中你从没走

寂寞暴走 - 飞轮海

这就是所谓的爱情吗？寂寞暴走。。。心里因为没有了你而寂寞到暴。。。可以这么说吗？哈哈，我想，我宁可享受爱你痛苦的路，也不要寂寞。。。因为寂寞的感觉，真的好难受。一个人，没有人关心你，体会你，分担你所有的痛苦 - 不用说所有，一小部分就够了 - 寂寞，真的，真的，真的很难受。你好啊，永远都不会寂寞，因为你身边有那么多朋友围绕着，不会寂寞。我呢？我死都不要寂寞。因为爱你，变成了我生活的习惯，也以其习惯了爱你的痛苦。有时那痛苦会涌上心头，痛到心好像要碎裂一样。死，会解决所有的事吗？受不了痛苦，不要寂寞，那，好有什么选择呢？死，我也怕。但怕的不是过程，而是死后的方向。那时的迷乱，我好怕。。。

Love, JOVYNE xD

A letter by me to me?

2009-01-07T16:36:00.001+08:00

Reason i decided to come blog was because I am thoroughly angry furious, cross, heated, mad (informal) raging, provoked, outraged, annoyed, passionate, irritated, raving, choked, infuriated, hot, incensed, enraged, ranting, exasperated, irritable, resentful, nettled, snappy, indignant, irate, tumultuous, displeased, riled, up in arms, incandescent, ill-tempered, irascible, antagonized, waspish, piqued, on the warpath, foaming at the mouth, choleric, splenetic, wrathful, at daggers drawn, in high dudgeon, as black as thunder, ireful.

-CENSORES TEXT HERE-

My original plan was to arrange for a chat during the meal together and catch-up. But my plans were never fulfilled.

It's my fault for having to ~~make them wait.~~ THEY BLOODY HELL WEREN'T EVEN WAITING FOR ME, I'm just a tool that delayed them. They are just doing ME A FAVOUR.
It's my fault I had to go run some errands before meeting them, which included receiving the x'mas gift from Anna's class and receiving the NEWS THAT SHE WASN'T JOINING US.
It's my fault I EVEN ATE.
IT'S TOTALLY MY FAULT I CALLED THEM OUT TOGETHER.

YES, IT BLOODY HELL WAS MY OWN DAMN FAULT. I brought this upon myself. THANKS FOR TREATING ME THIS WAY.

None of them understood my intention at all..

Inadequate, useless, feeble, poor, sorry, miserable, petty, worthless, meagre, pitiful, woeful, deplorable, lamentable, trashy, measly, rubbishy.

Maybe if i pretend hard enough I will gradually start to believe in it. You know, I value friendship more than studies, but no one knows. I have many interests, but no one knows. I wish to complain all about everyone else, but I cannot find someone I can entrust.

From putting these to words, I found out what I'd become to be, the word I forever shun: INTROVERT.

I may have my expectations, but they are simple to fulfil. Why, oh why, can't it be right for once? I want to be somebody.

Stay strong, bel. You can pull through it and emerge stronger. It's not that you are not worthy of them. They aren't. Miss Right has not appeared yet. But she will.

This time, I wonder what it feels like,
To find the one on this life,
The one we all dream of,
But dreams aren't just not enough,
So I'll be waiting for the real thing,
I'll know it by the feeling,
The moment when we're meeting,
Will play out like a scene,
Straight of the silver screen,
So I'll be holding my own breath,
Right up 'til the end,
Until the moment when,
I'll find the one that I'll find the one,
That I'll spend forever with.
'Cause nobody wants to be last one there,
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in there hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me like that,
'Cause nobody wants to do it all on their own,
And everyone wants to know they're not alone,
There's Somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

-Gotta Be Somebody; Nickelback

For the sake of 2009

2009-01-02T23:28:00.001+08:00

Greetings!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL BLOGGERS (& blog readers without exception)!

For the sake of 2009, I shall write a post in lieu of the new year and report on the first day of school.

The first second of the first day of the first month of the first term of the new year in school as a Secondary 4 in 4L is a day different from the other 364 days of the year.

2009 is a year I dread most of all the years of my existence. Secondary 4, tests & exams, and the ultimate goal, O' Levels.

The unchangeable fact that I react most strongly in the new year is that I've grown older and I. Do. Not. Want. To. Grow. Up! Ask Z. Ever since I'd turn 13 I never wanted to grow up. At the end of Sec. 1 I was pouring my sorrows to him about being in Sec. 2. Now look, here comes the Sec. 4. Is it just me or does it happen to other teens too? I want to be like Peter Pan, living in his Neverland, never having to grow up and receive responsibilities, never having to go to school nor be put in an office.

"To live, would be an awful big experience."

"To die, would be an awful big experience."

As quoted by: "Peter Pan", Jeremy Sumpter

Ha. But no, this does not mean I'll shirk all responsibilities in my life and start living aimlessly. I'd say I'm responsible, to a certain extent.

Then there's the dreading oh-so-much of being Sec.4s and having to deal with O' Levels. Yes, I jolly well know it's pointless. I'd still have to face reality, don't I? I'm merely stating what I feel, irregardless.
It'll be a year of self-discipline, drive, motivation and achieving goals. I'm sure in this course of achieving my goals, I'll accomplish much more in the process.
I hereby extend my wishes to all taking O' Levels this year!

I had a conversation with Y online about the future of ourselves. It's really a wide world out there, much undiscovered by a mere me. His choice of Computer Engineering really astounds me.
During a similar topic with X, X revealed to me she wants to be a STORYTELLER! She even told me about the story of her vampire autobiography. (Don't you know she's a vampire in discreet? o.0)

So on the 1st day of school, a few events happened.

Miraculously, I was in school by 7! Man, it's disheartening not to have any "distant company" like Giraffe and K to walk with to school! I miss walking to school with J...
Was awake by 5.45 as Lin got a long way to her new school, RV, with the company of Dad & Mum.

R gave me an ice-cream handphone strap as a souvenir from China. It was then that I found out she took the same almost exact tour as her when I went to China last Dec, SA Tour. Now H, R and I has ice=creams of a kind and even a wallpaper to accompany it! :D

There was a 2 hour long sickening never-ending talk in the assembly today. Had a rough look at the freshies, and trying to get used to the Sec3 boys with their long pants! (Esp. Aaron! OMGosh how cute. Hur hur.)Yeah man, I cannot wait to see how HANDSOME Isaac will look in his pants. HA HA.

J, here are the updates in school you wanted to know considering you're already out of school.

Our periods have been changed from 35 minute intervals to 45 minutes, which include recess time. Now, lessons end latest at 2.45pm and earliest at 1.15pm.
There will only be one 45 minute long recess as of this year!
Our form teacher remains the same from last year, your beloved Mr. B. Tan!
Well, and so does the co-form teacher, Mrs. Tan T. H.. No hard feelings!
The number of Discipline Masters have been increased from 1 to 6.
Ms Tay and Mr Neo have left the school! What awful news..

Mr. Tan had been considerate enough to change our places for the well-being of us, to "make new friends". I salute him for being such a form teacher who can stand in our shoes for doing so! I'm contented with the position of my seat, in terms of location. All I wish for, is to be able to get along well with my neighbours and not be influenced by A's sleepy spell! :p

My seat has a bird's eye view of the toilet, or rather, the people going to the toilet it provides an alternative source to passing boredom!

It's frustrating when you cannot find company after school for lunch. But thankfully I extended my search to outside school premises and found N! As always, the gentleman made me wait an hour for him to arrive, starving my stomach and torturing my legs by arriving after 3. Headed to KFC and chatted while we ate. Ho ho ho, I'm sorry to have put off playing bowling and pool. It was unlucky for you we couldn't play basketball as well. If only K were there, he could have provided a Tapz card for us. Heh.
Thanks for the fruitful ride home! (I have uncovered a secret.)

All the getting used to in school had really drained the vigour out of me I went back and soundly slept to the extent of missing 3 missed calls after a chat with J on school.

Maybe the goal setting had an impact on me, I see myself having the "mood" to set goals. Yes, you never know when it comes and when it disappears. I got to grab this time to settle myself down to start real work, to empower myself to be up on standards with my final goal.

This new year hadn't been much of a new feeling for me. Was it due to the fact that for once, my family didn't go overseas this holiday? Did I miss the chance to renew, energise, recharge myself? I have been living each day as it passes the whole holiday, and have missed out on the goodness of life.

2009-01-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

okay... the blog's quite dead la... but i shall update coz i got nothing to do lol!

okay. its 2009. it'll be a stressful year, a super busy one, coz there'll be SYF, drama night (i hope its still on...), prelims and olevels (ARGHHHH!!!!). hmm... i hope i can survive this. all this is just a test of patience, and peseverence, and luck. i don't know, but i kinda feel good about this year. i may be wrong for all i know, but hey, gut feeling... so far i've got suuuuper nice teachers - helen chew for form and english, mr. chan for a/e maths and co-form, ms. chan for chem (she may be naggy but she's quite okay), mrs. law for history (she's suuper cute!), and NOT ong eng kiat for physics! he gives good notes, but he totally can't teach. only thing - the seating arrangement!!! garh, mrs. chew didn't change it!!! we just sat back our old arrangement from last year la!!! OMG. i don't want...

i've got new year resolutions. just thought of it =DDD
1. olevels max 9 points!!! its susan's target, and my dad's as well! and IF i meet it, wellll... of course there's reward la! i won't reveal it just yet ;)
2. watch LOLLIPOP perform live!!!! (this only comes true if 1. does!!)
3. exercise more!!!
4. buy my cufflinks!!!!
5. CALVIN KLEIN apparel! (i dont really care if its CALVIN KLEIN or CALVIN KLEIN JEANS)
6. go for FAHRENHEIT autograph session!!!!

nothing much else... some are kinda unrealistic but... it will come true if i do something about it!

Love, JOVYNE xD